No matter how hard you try to hide your mistakes, past troubles, and darkest secrets, why is it they always find a way of coming back when you'd thought you were finally rid of them. People with confidence tell everyone who lacks it to be happy, trust in themselves, believe in what they are, but how can you do that when everytime you try to get on with your life, your pasts comes back to ruin the present again. When you look in the mirror and see yourself as worthless, weak, and hate yourself, how can anything anyone ever says change that opinion.
Most problem's are better handled when talked about and shared, but some skeletons are better left in the closet. When you hate yourself for what happened, you dont want to talk about it, to think about it, or to be judged over it. It's affected your life enough, and you'd prefer to let it lie in the closet than suffer the pain and humiliation of dragging it out. You dont want to be judged, looked at in that questioning way, and most importantly, pitied. You admitted defeat a long time ago, and now you just want to hide it. Everyones got their own skeletons, and they keep them secret for very good reasons.
Sorry for the lack of updates recently, my laptops is a semi functioning mode so its becoming a bloody pain to get anything added.
Also been very busy with work gubbins. Im now 100% split off on my own company... I can do what I want, where I want, when I want, as long as my clients get the results they pay for. This means I have freedom, but it also means that if everything goes disasterouslly wrong then im in for a lot of trouble.
It means however that soon as the rent is up on my current place im off to Australia on a one way ticket! I'll be able to work from anywhere due to a 3G connection, so ill be able to continue to work and bring in gbp whilst in oz, so hopefully ill stick out there for 3 or 4 months ( or thats the plan ). Looking at renting a holiday home, as for about 800, which is what I would be looking at a 1bed flat around my area, you can basically rent a holiday home and not have to worry about any bills such as electricity, water, or council tax. So it should work out cheaper to live in a nicer apartment out in Sydney. After that, I have no idea whatsoever. Last year was my relaxation year, this year is my exploring year.
Umm... what else have I been upto. I met up with Bob in Camden, did a bit of shopping, got some spikey bits and just had fun browsing. It's just nice to get away from Egham into London sometimes, just for relaxation.
Last night had an amazing time in the Blue Anchor... before you ask, no it's not a gay bar. It was an excellent night up until we left the Blue Anchor, but I really wished I had gone home then.
Apart from that I've mostly been working and trying to plan for Australia. Found a couple of property's on realestat.com.au which look very nice:
http://www.realestate.com.au/cgi-bin/rsearch?a=o&ag=&s=nsw&c=80976389&tm=1085697761&id=4969035&f=30&p=10&t=hol&ty=&snf=rbs&cu=&fmt=&header=#contact
http://www.realestate.com.au/cgi-bin/rsearch?a=o&ag=&s=nsw&c=80976389&tm=1085697761&id=4748486&f=30&p=10&t=hol&ty=&snf=rbs&cu=&fmt=&header=
http://www.realestate.com.au/cgi-bin/rsearch?a=o&ag=&s=nsw&c=80976389&tm=1085697761&id=4987556&f=30&p=10&t=hol&ty=&snf=rbs&cu=&fmt=&header=
Getting sick and tired of technology and fans buzzing around me 24 hours a day, so trying to decide between beach, or city.
Need to sort pictures of the projector and screen and everything as i've decided to get rid of all my gadgets to give me a bit extra to start my travels with. I would be content with no electrical items in oz to tell the truth, but because ill have to keep working, the ( non functional but needs to be fixed soon ) lappy will have to be coming with me .
Well, thats me about done for now. Take care all, and be happy.
Most problem's are better handled when talked about and shared, but some skeletons are better left in the closet. When you hate yourself for what happened, you dont want to talk about it, to think about it, or to be judged over it. It's affected your life enough, and you'd prefer to let it lie in the closet than suffer the pain and humiliation of dragging it out. You dont want to be judged, looked at in that questioning way, and most importantly, pitied. You admitted defeat a long time ago, and now you just want to hide it. Everyones got their own skeletons, and they keep them secret for very good reasons.
Sorry for the lack of updates recently, my laptops is a semi functioning mode so its becoming a bloody pain to get anything added.
Also been very busy with work gubbins. Im now 100% split off on my own company... I can do what I want, where I want, when I want, as long as my clients get the results they pay for. This means I have freedom, but it also means that if everything goes disasterouslly wrong then im in for a lot of trouble.
It means however that soon as the rent is up on my current place im off to Australia on a one way ticket! I'll be able to work from anywhere due to a 3G connection, so ill be able to continue to work and bring in gbp whilst in oz, so hopefully ill stick out there for 3 or 4 months ( or thats the plan ). Looking at renting a holiday home, as for about 800, which is what I would be looking at a 1bed flat around my area, you can basically rent a holiday home and not have to worry about any bills such as electricity, water, or council tax. So it should work out cheaper to live in a nicer apartment out in Sydney. After that, I have no idea whatsoever. Last year was my relaxation year, this year is my exploring year.
Umm... what else have I been upto. I met up with Bob in Camden, did a bit of shopping, got some spikey bits and just had fun browsing. It's just nice to get away from Egham into London sometimes, just for relaxation.
Last night had an amazing time in the Blue Anchor... before you ask, no it's not a gay bar. It was an excellent night up until we left the Blue Anchor, but I really wished I had gone home then.
Apart from that I've mostly been working and trying to plan for Australia. Found a couple of property's on realestat.com.au which look very nice:
http://www.realestate.com.au/cgi-bin/rsearch?a=o&ag=&s=nsw&c=80976389&tm=1085697761&id=4969035&f=30&p=10&t=hol&ty=&snf=rbs&cu=&fmt=&header=#contact
http://www.realestate.com.au/cgi-bin/rsearch?a=o&ag=&s=nsw&c=80976389&tm=1085697761&id=4748486&f=30&p=10&t=hol&ty=&snf=rbs&cu=&fmt=&header=
http://www.realestate.com.au/cgi-bin/rsearch?a=o&ag=&s=nsw&c=80976389&tm=1085697761&id=4987556&f=30&p=10&t=hol&ty=&snf=rbs&cu=&fmt=&header=
Getting sick and tired of technology and fans buzzing around me 24 hours a day, so trying to decide between beach, or city.
Need to sort pictures of the projector and screen and everything as i've decided to get rid of all my gadgets to give me a bit extra to start my travels with. I would be content with no electrical items in oz to tell the truth, but because ill have to keep working, the ( non functional but needs to be fixed soon ) lappy will have to be coming with me .
Well, thats me about done for now. Take care all, and be happy.
Thats veryyyyyyy cool you are coming to Australia- i live in sydney hehe You should move newtown area, alternativey area it kicks ass- good people, good pubs, good food!... Its a great country im sure you will love it! I can show ya around if ya so liked!!!
[Edited on Jun 09, 2004 10:16PM]