Ok so silence speaks volumes , but if I am not allowed a little honesty here I dread to think where I can.

I think I need to explain myself a little clearer after my last entry.

For the record,,,,,,,,,,

I am not an alcoholic , but I do drink too much .

I have never hurt another living soul and never concisely would , but I dont do enough to help either.

I am far too lazy , yet I work too hard.

I love animals , but I still eat them.

I give generously , yet I keep and I take what I can.

I love women , but yet I always end up hurting them

I am no addict , yet I am not entirely clean . I indulge myself once or twice a year, because I want too .

I have a tattoo on my back which depicts and angel and a devil in the famous reservoir dogs pose , stalemate with guns , neither has the advantage. And that sums me up more than anything else I can say.

He who casts the first stone and all that?

Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone no doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
I'm just stoned
I went to a shrink
To analyze my dreams
She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down
I went to a whore
He said my life is a bore
And quit my whining 'cause it's bringing her down
Grasping to control
So you better hold on