I I I I I.....I Wanna BE SEDATED!!!!
so im going back to school for the few months i have left to leave a person i should have never been with to begin with. i never loved him i always loved an ex of mine i messed up i kissed someone else and forever lost him. even now when my life looks perfect it is nothing to me. i read over letters he use to write me ive frozen my life in time....sleeping on a couch just waiting for the day i can leave.
i know now no one could have ever replaced such an amazing person.
i guess im hiding now...my shame...myself....how far ive let my life destroy me.
holding onto pictures of the past that will never be a person i cant even talk to.
to him....i love you deeper than the waters...that never changed....id beg at your feet for centuries just for forgiveness and another chance....to you i could never express how sorry i am. how stupid i was. how i took you from my own life. ill always feel you...the missing part of my life.
so my plans are to get my own place and live a life with my dogs and myself because true love cant be replaced or changed. its time now to find forgiveness in myself....and creepily put his picture back on my wall.
so im going back to school for the few months i have left to leave a person i should have never been with to begin with. i never loved him i always loved an ex of mine i messed up i kissed someone else and forever lost him. even now when my life looks perfect it is nothing to me. i read over letters he use to write me ive frozen my life in time....sleeping on a couch just waiting for the day i can leave.
i know now no one could have ever replaced such an amazing person.
i guess im hiding now...my shame...myself....how far ive let my life destroy me.
holding onto pictures of the past that will never be a person i cant even talk to.
to him....i love you deeper than the waters...that never changed....id beg at your feet for centuries just for forgiveness and another chance....to you i could never express how sorry i am. how stupid i was. how i took you from my own life. ill always feel you...the missing part of my life.
so my plans are to get my own place and live a life with my dogs and myself because true love cant be replaced or changed. its time now to find forgiveness in myself....and creepily put his picture back on my wall.
janette:
thank u lovely*