point8flashes

I want to start by giving love and thank yous to all of you I appreciate it so much you have no idea...this has been the worst few days of my entire life and knowing that people I dont even really know can read this and give the advice that you did gives hope to the rest of the world that decent people do exist lol but we talked and we argued and I put my foot down and told her that Im not happy and that Im not waiting forever, if she still wants to change things she can but if I dont see anything there then im leaving and im not looking back, i told her i would stay loyal and not go out looking for anything but if things stay this way and something better finds me then I can't stay and hurt myself anymore, no hooking up nothing just holding on, i know this sounds so unmasculine but the other night I was ready to just call it all off and I sat in my room holding onto everything that she gave me and our pictures and I lost it and cried my eyes out and decided to hold onto the last shred of hope left, yes i could still get hurt but what if we can fix things and I didnt try, im a hopeless romantic and ive loved this girl for 4 years since we first met, and not puppy love but serious sappy movie one and only love and im not ready to let it go without a fight, me not being as upset just showed to me that my actions were just and that things did need to change and she said that she would make the effort to fix things and to just believe in her, i know i dont get on here often enough to update but i will try but thank you so much again i love all of you

J