I've come to this unfortunate understanding.
YOUTUBE VIDEO THAT SG DOESN'T WANT TO MAKE A VIDEO.... HRM
This is how I've been feeling lately and its all sorts of not fun. Not that I have anything against.... liking someone else far away but its... so difficult. But yah, that's my story, and its not just involving one person. I mean its only three guys but all of them are an ocean away. In fact, only one of them isn't on this site. We talk through an art site. 6'3", German, black hair, iPod always in pocket and gorgeous. As of late I've been spending hours just... daydreaming about them. Imagining their voices and the way they smell, how their hand gestures are and the way they smoke their fags, eat their food, and drink. Crazy right?! Like obsessive scary. I hate it, because I know for many reasons I can never have them. And yet my feelings decide to jump forward, so I get hurt when it really seems like its nothing. Damn you heart/feelings/emotions...
I'm trying to figure out what to do with my hair. I'm stuck on how to cut it. I still want it long, just Its all like not cut in a way that I want. I'll figure it out... eventually. Even gonna add in some pink, turquoise, and maybe purple. I sorta want to make it like the Cheshire cat. Haha Cause that's classy.
Got in another car accident. 3, in 3 years. I'm classy. This one was so my fault too, which is a first. Talk about fucking stress, taking over. I don't think my car is bad, but we will have to wait and see.
Can anything go right now? Apparently not. I'm sick and I'm sicker then I've ever been....
I'm gonna go geek out on some History Channel International, and then read some art related stuffs. Cause I'm a chic sort of geek.
So I have a crush on a new celebrity. Aaron Johnson. Can he be mine please?!
Star of KickAss. Good movie by the way. Next I need to see The Loser's cause I love Zoe Salanda.
I should see AVATAR... She's a voice in that... Hrm.
I hate life right now... How are you?
YOUTUBE VIDEO THAT SG DOESN'T WANT TO MAKE A VIDEO.... HRM
This is how I've been feeling lately and its all sorts of not fun. Not that I have anything against.... liking someone else far away but its... so difficult. But yah, that's my story, and its not just involving one person. I mean its only three guys but all of them are an ocean away. In fact, only one of them isn't on this site. We talk through an art site. 6'3", German, black hair, iPod always in pocket and gorgeous. As of late I've been spending hours just... daydreaming about them. Imagining their voices and the way they smell, how their hand gestures are and the way they smoke their fags, eat their food, and drink. Crazy right?! Like obsessive scary. I hate it, because I know for many reasons I can never have them. And yet my feelings decide to jump forward, so I get hurt when it really seems like its nothing. Damn you heart/feelings/emotions...
I'm trying to figure out what to do with my hair. I'm stuck on how to cut it. I still want it long, just Its all like not cut in a way that I want. I'll figure it out... eventually. Even gonna add in some pink, turquoise, and maybe purple. I sorta want to make it like the Cheshire cat. Haha Cause that's classy.
Got in another car accident. 3, in 3 years. I'm classy. This one was so my fault too, which is a first. Talk about fucking stress, taking over. I don't think my car is bad, but we will have to wait and see.
Can anything go right now? Apparently not. I'm sick and I'm sicker then I've ever been....
I'm gonna go geek out on some History Channel International, and then read some art related stuffs. Cause I'm a chic sort of geek.
So I have a crush on a new celebrity. Aaron Johnson. Can he be mine please?!
Star of KickAss. Good movie by the way. Next I need to see The Loser's cause I love Zoe Salanda.
I should see AVATAR... She's a voice in that... Hrm.
I hate life right now... How are you?
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but all my pics need a bit of editing, which means i'd have to develop them myself, which would be very expensive and unnecessary complicated.
and i'm not talking about making it perfect, editing has always been used in photography.
glad to hear you're getting better finally! can't afford to pay you a visit though... XD
i'm moody lately, everything is better than it has been in months, but i can't let myself enjoy that, cause the more happiness i get, the more affraight to lose it i get.
i don't "like" editing either, though i think we just have a different opinion about it. i see it more like getting the most out of the picture instead of fixing flaws. to me the picture is the starting point and the editing finishes it, a final touch up.
i'm better now and trying to enjoy the good sides as much as possible, yet i'm still expecting the worst, which isn't too bad, since i'm prepared in a way.