So howdy gang.
Sorry I've been long dead. Over a week now. Been everywhere.

Still in a sort of triangle with Nathan and Tyler, but I'm glad that I'm finally seeing a side of him that I don't like. In that same respect I'm seeing a side of Nathan that I don't like. But Everything has been explained, and so I don't know. I've been pondering the past few days about asking him, exactly what we are. Are we friends, or are we friends pushing for more then that. I don't want to be all. I need to know but I'm a chick, and that's natural. Right?!
I could go into it, but I don't feel like it right now. So much going on and not enough actually happening.

Other then that I've been stuff between going work overseas and not. Once again. I want to go but at the same time, I'm finally ready to go into to school. I've been ready and holding it off. And now I just sort of feel like if I go, and then come back that I wont be in this mood that took me about 3 years to get to anyway. My mom has been bringing up some great ideas and things to also add to the list of things to think about, which have been helpful and also not helpful at all. I'm just confused and procrastinating thinking about it all.

How have things been for you? I've been getting in arguments with my step sisters on facebook, my parents are home, and I'm dealing with my father, and I'm trying to get in an understanding of where I'm going in my life and why I'm still this girl. I've been through so much shit, and right now... I'm just at a lose that I don't know what path to take right now. Its so very aggravating. I don't need any straight answers, I just need to sit and think it through. Sometimes it feels like their aren't enough hours in a day to do that.

My tea is getting cold and my mommie made me cinnamon rolls which are still hot. So I best be off! I'm trying to get a cold.... Come take care of me please!


Love peace and chicken grease.
Thomas


To become a hopeful? Yah, or Nah?