pixietom

It's a little premature but...

I'll be spending Valentine's day alone... again.
Though technically last year I hung out with friends, but we were the Broken Hearts Club and Josh was there...s o now its like a bittersweet thing. That's when Josh told Tiffany he liked her, and Tiffany told him that she only wanted/loved Mark while Mark was obsessing over me, and I was crushing on Josh.
I haven't learned my lesson either, cause if he texted me right now... I'd answer immediately.

V-day I will be alone. A lonely soul with other lonely souls but that really just brings out the loneliness. I'm looking forward to not thinking about love, and my many fuck ups along the way. I know that no matter what I do its gonna be on my mind. No matter what I do, what conversations I have... it will be looming over me like the cliche thundercloud, raining and thundering.

stupid boys.... not getting, and not wanting me.
stupid girls....
I'm worth more then a fling right?!

But who needs to hear my whine about problems that many people have.
have a dandy fucking V-day... I'm trying not to say that cynically.

Anywho...