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I didn't mean to be gone for so long. I'm actually quiet shocked. My last blog had the most comments I think I've had. 17. I'm kinda proud of it. But then I'm still shocked. It went to the second page. This never happens to me. Hehe.
Most importantly... I found a song that I would literally have sex to. Just put it on repeat and go.
Like I mean it. I wanna dance to this, well with a partner. My imaginary lover isn't much help in times like this. Holding and whispering the lyrics in my ears isn't something he can do.
I've started up another tattoo on my doll. This is a full leg piece and its of water, koi, and some more skeletons. Oh yah ass some flowers in there and such. And I'm doing his hands. On his fingers I have TOKIDOKI. Haha totally influenced by me. And on hand a chesteshire cat. I know I misspelled that horridly. That is one word I can't spell worth a lick. And on the other, I'm making him an Aquarius and he has an water-bearer sort of design.
I was out walking last night which has become my ritual again. I think where ever I move there has to be a small part nearby so I can walk around and maybe sing in the dead of night and feel like no one is watching. But I caught a shooting star, and I made a wish on it. In my heart I know it wont come true but my goodness I can dream right. Though thats sorta what got me into this mess.
I'm letting go of Christian. Its best I not try and have a decoy, to cover up how I feel about Josh. I'm going to wait it out. With my darling Jesse/CookiePuss I shall keep talking to her. I like the way she pays attention to me, and is enough of a distance away to make me feel more special about it.
I need to spruce up my house.
I was really sick last night. Like I woke up in the middle of the night really hot and heartburn like no other. It was horrible. But I opened my window and just sat down in my bed and slowly it went away. I kinda want egg right now.
Pictures of that soon and maybe more of me, since that got good responses.



I didn't mean to be gone for so long. I'm actually quiet shocked. My last blog had the most comments I think I've had. 17. I'm kinda proud of it. But then I'm still shocked. It went to the second page. This never happens to me. Hehe.
Most importantly... I found a song that I would literally have sex to. Just put it on repeat and go.
Like I mean it. I wanna dance to this, well with a partner. My imaginary lover isn't much help in times like this. Holding and whispering the lyrics in my ears isn't something he can do.
I've started up another tattoo on my doll. This is a full leg piece and its of water, koi, and some more skeletons. Oh yah ass some flowers in there and such. And I'm doing his hands. On his fingers I have TOKIDOKI. Haha totally influenced by me. And on hand a chesteshire cat. I know I misspelled that horridly. That is one word I can't spell worth a lick. And on the other, I'm making him an Aquarius and he has an water-bearer sort of design.
I was out walking last night which has become my ritual again. I think where ever I move there has to be a small part nearby so I can walk around and maybe sing in the dead of night and feel like no one is watching. But I caught a shooting star, and I made a wish on it. In my heart I know it wont come true but my goodness I can dream right. Though thats sorta what got me into this mess.
I'm letting go of Christian. Its best I not try and have a decoy, to cover up how I feel about Josh. I'm going to wait it out. With my darling Jesse/CookiePuss I shall keep talking to her. I like the way she pays attention to me, and is enough of a distance away to make me feel more special about it.
I need to spruce up my house.


I was really sick last night. Like I woke up in the middle of the night really hot and heartburn like no other. It was horrible. But I opened my window and just sat down in my bed and slowly it went away. I kinda want egg right now.
Pictures of that soon and maybe more of me, since that got good responses.




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they can't take the old series away from you