pixietom

I thought I'd come say hello.

I've been all over the place these past few days. Last night, well actually this morning. I was in a pit of despair. I couldn't sleep, I was lonely, horny (and masturbating makes it worse) feeling insignificant and other things in that direction. This is how my days go... I find myself in the house either staring up at the ceiling or I'm out driving to no where, until I decide to go home. But last night when it was getting worse, I talked to a friend of mine on messenger. For some three hours and it was really nice. He told me I had worth, and after everything else. I need to know I have that. That I didn't deserve what happened to me. That I still matter. And I do. I really do, whether it be one person or more. I matter to at least one person.

Josh is getting flaky on me. So I've resolved to not text him unless he texts me. And seconds after making that resolved I texted him. No replay. I find that I'm getting clingy with him. I don't want to, but what can you when you miss him and you haven't seen him, and when you ask him he doesn't reply, but you know he's getting your texts....
So I say it again I'm done with love. Done. Done. I mean it. Until this happens all over again....

So funny story, I found out a day or two ago that Mark asked Tiffany (the assholes of my past) out and they are now dating.

I got my new doll a few days. So I went about customizing her. She's such a small little thing. I've done her face up (makeup) her nails and toe nails. I just have some tattoos to add, but its so hot in my house I can't stay in my art-work room. I named her absinthie tokidoki.