pixietom

Bleh.

My tummy kinda hurts, it was bad earlier. I went to the Art Museum and did some work, and then they gave me some posters to take places and advertise this play that they have coming up. I then get to go to the opening day and enjoy and the festivities! I'm kind of excited.

Then I had a sort of epiphany. I think. It came from no where, in a way and I've been thinking about it all day. I think I want to be an art curator... its sort of unlike me, to have something like that, but...
Its perfect.
I can be around art, and not actually have to do my own art for people. I deal with others works and such.
It would be great to be like a part time tattoo on the side. Its sort of crazy....

I don't know if that idea will stick. I will have to go to school for that, but I don't mind. I just have no clue what to do in school. So I don't want to waste my time and get far away from my actual goal.

I'm gonna try and find some more places to volunteer.

Yesterday my friend got me these Vegan chocolate chip cookies. I love them so much! SO GOOD!

A few days ago something so odd happened. I was sleeping and watching documentaries when my doorbell rang. I wasn't expecting anyone, so I was like what...? Well it was Matthew. The older brother of Mark who literally single handed took my life apart, because I wouldn't love him, or date him and he didn't get it or try and understand that. He treated me like shit and called me so many things. Did so many things to himself, to make me say 'I love you'. Months of mental abuse that left me with nothing... But here was his brother that actually like yelled at me and hated me for what I did to his brother... He came to apologize to me. Tell me that he was sorry for everything he did, and how he took his brothers side without even knowing the situation and also knowing his brother and what his brother will do and such. Him of all people didn't have to apologize to me, he had a right in a way, that's his brother. We talked about life now, and he's glad that I'm at least over it and my life is way better. I've picked up all the pieces and gotten some more that I'm putting with my life. Moving forward...
I'm still weary. I know its like Matt, but part of me thinks he's acting as a spy for Mark. Must go slowly with this.

I saw Kyle yesterday, (hot Whole Foods guy, that I know I should just forget about and go about my business, cause he's probably bad news) and well he kept looking at me. I wasn't looking at him, unless he'd walk in front of me. Just you know when you get that feeling that someone is watching you, well yah... I got that a lot. At points I ignored it, but then when I'd look up sometimes, it was him. Blatantly staring in a way, until I looked up and he''s slowly turn his head away. I just want to leave it at like he was looking at something by me... but my little heart is going to go be all illogical on me.

Once my tummy is done, being evil/upset I think I'm gonna do some drabbles in decorating my dream house/place... Don't make fun of me. Its what I want!
*laughs*