I'm in love. I know it's probably a little sappy. Even worse I know I don't stand a chance with the girl. Let me give you a little background. I have always been a little on the heavy side. Not sure if that has anything to do with things or if it's all in my head. Probably is all in my head. Anyway I've moved to Wyoming a few years ago. I have a small group of friends and don't really put myself out there to meet knew people all that much. I have always been a really shy person when it comes to woman. ESPECIALLY SOMEONE I'M INTERESTED IN. One of the guys in my group of friends has brought his sister around a handful of times and at first I definitely noticed her but never thought I had a chance. Then one night with her hanging out with the group I finally got my chance to have a little conversation and get to know her better. We seemed to hit it off and later that night I gave her and her cousin a ride home. I was invited to stick around and hang out for a little bit. While hanging out I saw a side of her that instantly sucked me in. I was a mutual friend of her brother's but to her not much stranger. However she let her guard down and showed me a side of her I instantly fell in love with. During one of our smoke breaks away from the cousin she kissed me. We were both a little tipsy so I ended up staying the night and sharing her bed. Nothing else happened that night and the next morning she went to work and I went home without much conversation. Over the next couple of weeks we didn't really talk much and never really brought up that night. After a while we ran into each other at the local bar both there hanging out with her brother, my friend, who was in town after a few weeks. By the end of the night I had a good enough buzz going that I finally got the courage up to tell her I had a crush on her ever since that night when we kissed, to which she said she had already known since it wasn't much of a secret within my friends. She also said if I had asked her out after that night she would have said YES. At this point I asked her out she said yeah and we made plans for the following Friday night. I didn't realize this at the time but that particular Friday happened to be Valentines day. SHE STOOD ME UP. I tried a couple times after that to reach out unsuccessfully before giving up on any chance we may or may not have had.
I thought I was over things and moved on and then I saw her tonight at the bar celebrating my Birthday with a couple friends. She was as gorgeous as ever and we talked and caught up as if nothing had ever happened.
I know I should move on and try and forget about her but I can't. Every time I think I have I see her again and it all comes back.