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today, i feel better
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foz:
hey sweety, it takes time. we all have insane thoughts when we first break up with someone we were in love with. it's normal. things will be rough for a while. it'll be ok though.
I promise, just have to start doing you things again.
akasnuggles:
hazzah for feeling better! what--if anything--turned ya around?

hope you feel better
i'm better every day. it's just those first two hours of the day that kills me. the anxiety'll get better as i get used to the source--so there's always that.

know that self fear is self fulfilling.
i dont think i quite understand that, explain?

which teas would you suggest?

so, you want me to shoot yr ink or what?
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i feel very stupid right now,

i have a class where all the quizes are submitted on line, and i thought i compleated all the quezes for last week, so at about 830 this evening, i decided to look on line to see what the next quize would be. only first i wanted to see what would happen if i googled some stuff... so at...
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akasnuggles:
i say fuck mondays and all things that come with em.

you still want me to shoot yr new ink when it's done? i got a couple things i wanna try if yr game.

think, what if i walked over there right now, and asked him if he wanted to get married.....
at this point i stop walking and i actually puke on the sidewalk.

wow...sometimes spontinaity is a bad thing.
i generally feel great after a good vomit. but that's just me.

is the missed quiz gonna fuck ya proper, or is it something that can slide?
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today, today, today, right now!!!!!

i went out last night, it was awfull!!!!

but at least i went out. i saw a band and they were pretty bad, so i had a couple of beers, i took some protection (my friend lindsey) with me to make sure i didn't go home with the fourty year old bag boy from krogers again. so you know,
but...
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going to get more ink today!!!! biggrin biggrin biggrin
i'm so happy,
its kinda weird cause i don't know what to do with myself, and i don't really have any friends that are like hey, lets hang out during the day...sober....in the sunlight, possibly go to lunch in a public place...yeah, most of my friends only come out at night, and don't really embrace the art of social...
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akasnuggles:
dan savage happens to be the coolest man ever. he writes a syndicated sex advice column, "Savage Love," as well as columns for ABCNEWS.com, gay.com, and OUT magazine.
i saw him on Real Time with Bill Maher the other night and the man is perfect. absolutely. the highest complement i can give someone is "I'd Hang Out With Em," and he gets that a million times over.
i dont think he's any relation to Fred Savage, but that would be extra-super cool if he was.

start somking so much that you get an iron lung to breath for you
an iron lung beats the hell out of an Aqua Lung any day--Take That, Jethro!

are you still going for the spirally vine thingie? or is that for a later date?

i alway think if i call someone in the morning and ask them if they want to go out that night, then thats plenty of time... aparently not
i always say "Gimme plenty of time to prepare," but usually that just makes me anxious for a number of days. but some of the best days i've lived were unexpected days, you know what i mean?

Self improvement's masturbation.

i read some reviews of the Wild Parrots thing, and it sounds like i'm gonna cry like a little girl during it. it sounds quite quirky and "zen". i predict tomorrow will rock.

good luck with the car!
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yeah for not being friends...
cause its really hard to try to be grown up and nice and all that shite. no fuck that, it didn't work out again so lets just embrace that for awhile.

yeah, and fuck a dentist in the ass sideways with a hammer, cause thats how much its gonna hurt when he fucks up my teeth. everyone keeps saying, just...
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everydaylife:
thanks, sweetie kiss
akasnuggles:
again these thigs would't even be important around these parts.
i hope by "these parts" you mean around-about you, and not in Normal.

can actually make myself sick with regret over how i handled the situation.
i calls them suicide moments.

i know what i'm like... i hate myself..i'm an asshole, would you want to be alone with me...wait, don't answer that
lol yes
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today i'm going to the dentist... i feel very grown up about this because i fucking hate the dentist!!!!
but i have some cavaties, and i'm pretty sure theres some new form of gum disease thats was invented by the bacteria in my mouth.

so, yeah, going to the dentist. and i also get to miss the firs exam in my "reasoning" class which is...
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latchbeam:
Good luck! biggrin
akasnuggles:
fuck a dentist--those pricks can kiss my dick. i have a thing against jack-wads poking their hands in my mouth--fuck that shit, fuck it in it's ear.
but, good luck!
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i'm so compleatly confused at this time.
i didn't want to get out of bed today. so i made a doctors apointment....this means more pills.

i miss him... but not,.... you know ...the him,
like i don't miss the him sleeping on the other couch, i don't miss him not taking me out, i don't miss him not being able to keep up. i don't...
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akasnuggles:
yr ill? what's up?

of course you're gonna miss him, you've only been split up for a minute, yo.

the way he snores and talks in his sleep about atomic energy.
i knew this chick that had extra saliva-or something-sloshing around in her mouth when she slept. after a couple nights of that i wanted to hit her in the face with a hammer.
guey snores like a mule.
s talks, rambles, when he sleeps. he also flails alot, and at times smokes or eats.
i've seen videos of myself sleeping and, i swear, it looks like i'm dead.
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what do you mean the world doesn't stop and go at my command.

today was going so bad, really shitty, then i got a call from a friend and she said that there was another friend she had been in touch with. and then i remember all the horrible things i had put this individual through. so i decided to e-mail them because, "the'd feel...
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akasnuggles:
so, what "horrible things" did you put em thru?
akasnuggles:
ja kick him in the balls or something? or-or-or didja twist his balls?
didja do anything to his balls?

Believe me, nothing is trivial.
sometimes i hate the fact that i think in terms of pop-culture.

we should totally get together this week sometime.
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i feel compleatly fucked up. not like wasted or anything like that, but like somone beat the shit out of me with a sledgehammer....what, you might ask would lead to such shittiness...let me tell you.
yesterday me and x-boyfriend were being very civil, i was thinking, yes i can be frinds, i went to his new house and we talked about stuff and it was...
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akasnuggles:
tomorrow will be better. i promise.
well, atleast yr not this guy




hmm.... bunnies.
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ahhhh sweet relief in the form of the crimson tide...
now its time for fun with euphemisms....
massacare at the y
my red dollar days
payin the mothly bill
the slow heavy

and so on...

today i'm going to dinner with jim. i think he's dying... this is bad...sort of...i really don't fell like explaining.
i was supposed to go to maggie's last night, but...
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akasnuggles:
rough day at the office?
nah, just really moody this week. monday went fine, the rest was hell.

i'd list a few euphemisms, but, oddly, i dunno any.

you....you take kung-fu classes...?

swirlies? how do you mean? you have to take me with you when you get the next one.
najohns:
Let me know when you are ready to get it. I know the best artist around. He did my newest tat. Got it while you were on your little field trip. I'll show ya. It is great work.