phoolsfire

so how was ya christmas
hope ya had a merry one

i'm living on tamales for the next week. .
menos masa mas carne.
what kinda tequila goes round your parts?
just interested.

do you speak spanish?

i'm want to learn

i'm waiting for you to visit someone you know near me. .

so that i can be an afterthought of the best vacation you ever had. .





the kid got me a led zeppelin cd for x-mas

that's cool with me

nope never got the e-mail. .
i went to a winter solstice campfire thingy down on the beach tonite w/ the kid. .
that was fun. .
we sang bowie songs together. .
it was held at main st. beach here in guadalupe where i live.
it's some type of state park dealymabob . .that has protected sand dunes . . (meaning , i guess that people can't jump their motorcycles and such all over them) because, it seems the world is running out of large masses of sand . *shrug.
who knew?

or maybe it's the animals that are protected that live there?

maybe i shoud've listened better. .

see ya!

we have a new dog at the house and my son says " i don't really like playing with him, because everytime i do, he gets a boner"
and that's perdy funny.
but
sometimes i think that ,
that's how you feel about me. .

and i'm afraid it's true.

to touch your lips. .

to see how your body responds to my cold. cold hands. .

to kiss your belly
and know that .. .

no matter where i go from there.

is heaven. .



merry christmas !

to me hapiness is good parking spot, its a cold beer at the end of a shitty day
see, that's "little happiness." that's something to hold you over till big happiness comes.
or not. i could be totally wrong.

i pretty much only notice when things don't go as planed
i totally just never make plans. but i think that has something to do with my anti-commitment stance.
actually, now that i think about it, most everything i do is because i'm afraid of commitment... that's a fuckin breakthru. more on that as i think it over.

still all bird-flued up?

how is it that you get to travel all over everywhere?
if you don't mind me asking..
are you mad at me?
i haven't heard from you recently.

hiya,
how'd your vacation go?
maybe you can e-mail me and tell me. .

things are good here
i'm about to get my drivers license back!
i hope
did you know that i i haven't gone 'out' in over a year?
(except with the kid to a coupla concerts. .)
not once . .
not one single time.
in over a year. .

not fuckin once!

am i like the king of self-control or what?

maybe i'm just a

hey babe!
how ya doin?
you know you rock ?
i'd fight any girl over you.
meaning if there was some situation that i had to fight a girl to win your love type thing. .



see ya!

if anybody deserves a vacation it's you. have a great time.

i thought the term was. . 'i need lunch'?

wait. what is the date today?
i'm squinting to see. ok so todays friday
oh. . you're prolly on your way . .

i demand that you have a good time over your vacation. .because i'm a demanding kinda guy.

so there ..

i'll be expecting a lipstick stained napkin from the coolest club you ventured to ..

(if you do that type of thing)

surreal:

have fun!

the only magazines on the desk are Oct. 05's EGM, the fall CCS catalogue and this years Swiss Colony.
i'm not much for shoes and i've already read the EGM 3 times (high or not, that's alot), so sweets it be, playa.

what's that saying, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of the cure? which is a saying that fits more my escapism techniques. easy switch: finger to a fifth? think it over.

mexican'ts!!
too funny. .

la hentai salutes you

and to answer your question. . yes i have noticed, but i rarely bother unless i'm around family. .

i have the house to myself this weekend . .wanna come over and watch some movies?
i'll wash my comforter and my pillow. . cases?

*shrug

and to entice the offer even more. .i'll steal
any bottle of booze you wish to drink that evening . . (as long as we carry it )

in other bad news . .now that i've shorn off most of my hair , i've come to realize , i might possibly be a pin-head. .

pin-head savant is the term i'm gonna use from now on. .

hope you have a nice weekend. .

sometimes when i'm black and blue, and i happen to be on this web-site, getting more depressed thinking about all the girls i'll never get my clammy little hands on, i check out my 'testimonials' . . and it makes me wonder how, even though i say the most ridiculous, nonsensical and sometimes downright despicable things . .someone see's thru all that and let's me know . .i'm not alone after all . .and they might even consider me a friend or at least cheap entertainment. . so i hope you can crawl to your computer tomorrow and read yours. .
sorry about your head and heart-aches .
wish i could be a pillow for ya, . .even though i'm kinda edgy. . wish i could cleanse ya'.



don't know where that came from . . but it's true. .

today was not the best day of my life part 2...it was bad news bears...luckily i'm still feeling very bi-polar, so i'm not even bothered that one of my friends screwed things up for me in front of a whole bunch of new people...

i was upset at the beginning of this week, because my ugliness was showing, but now i know, that everyone's shows sometime...i'm just glad i have what little grace i do to not transform into a total monster.

I had the same thing going on with Sara's (actually two sara's and a sarah)!! Good luck!

Thank God for caller ID!!!!

awwww, sorry darlin. i lost her number i think, although i may still have a business card somewhere... hmmm.
WOW, so many Chrises. i guess you wont have to worry about calling them the wrong name during... yeah, um personally i dont like it when other people have my first name, so im just stickin with my new pimp name... holla!

There's a great word for your affliction:

Anomie, noun. 1. Social instability caused by erosion of standards and values.
2. Alienation and purposelessness experienced by a person or a class as a result of a lack of standards, values, or ideals.

I've suffered off and on from anomie, as well (esp. in the #2 definition sense).

Maybe you just don't see any reinforcement out there in society for being a good, engaged person. That's why doing good makes you feel "cheap and trite." Depressing, I know...

well, howdy doody!