Sunday Jul 03, 2005

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so today i'm at my dads, and it occurs to me that this will be the first 4th of july with out ex-boyfriend guy since i;ve been here, hummm and funny it seems as if god hates me because it also happens to fall on the day of my highest emotional vulnreability.
blah blah blah, i miss him alot. that doesn't change the way we were no good together. or the way it was uncomfortably bad at the end. but still i miss him.

akasnuggles:
i dont think i've ever been inna relationship that spanned more than half a year, so i can only imagine what it might feel like to be in yr position.
'cept with sammy.
i wish there was something i could do, but i know i'd inevitably fail at whatever it is. so spend some time with yr dad and with joe, and know that even if god does hate you, you have alotta people here that love and need you.
or something equally as comforting. i'm no good at this.

yeah.
dangergirl:
be strong, chica. you might looka t it as god loving you enough to let you be free to live on your own terms without compromise. besides, it's usually easier to travel without somebody at home worrying or being jealous. look at it as an opportunity to fully experience whatever you are doing at the time.
imagine you are going back on deployment, without all the crappy work environment. i remember you had a pretty good time after hours. wink

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