my brain hurts alot, i can't wait for vacation!!! i know i just got back from vacation, but i wanna go again!!! i wanna go now, i wanna go to Az to visit my friend matt. i don't wanna do anymore homework!
i can't wait for my roomate to move out. the bitch is crazy, just cause shes gone all suburbaite on me doesn't mean...
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i don't wanna do shite!
i need to finish my homework, and then get my ass into bed,
so far i've managed to smoke about a half a pack of ciggeretts, and "play" on the internet for like an hour.
i will now put an end to this nonsense.
i will smoke one more ciggerette and then read my homework, and then go to bed....
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i need to finish my homework, and then get my ass into bed,
so far i've managed to smoke about a half a pack of ciggeretts, and "play" on the internet for like an hour.
i will now put an end to this nonsense.
i will smoke one more ciggerette and then read my homework, and then go to bed....
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hornitos:
hiya, 
how'd your vacation go?
maybe you can e-mail me and tell me. .
things are good here
i'm about to get my drivers license back!
i hope
did you know that i i haven't gone 'out' in over a year?
(except with the kid to a coupla concerts. .)
not once . .
not one single time.
in over a year. .
not fuckin once!
am i like the king of self-control or what?
maybe i'm just a
how'd your vacation go?
maybe you can e-mail me and tell me. .
things are good here
i'm about to get my drivers license back!
i hope
did you know that i i haven't gone 'out' in over a year?
(except with the kid to a coupla concerts. .)
not once . .
not one single time.
in over a year. .
not fuckin once!
am i like the king of self-control or what?
maybe i'm just a
hornitos:
hey babe!
how ya doin?
you know you rock ?
i'd fight any girl over you.
meaning if there was some situation that i had to fight a girl to win your love type thing. .
see ya!
how ya doin?
you know you rock ?
i'd fight any girl over you.
meaning if there was some situation that i had to fight a girl to win your love type thing. .
see ya!
i like lunch!
but i like vacation even better!!!
only one more day till i'm done with classes
then on monday i will beheading out to see dangergirl in seattle. its gonna rock!!
yeah.
but i like vacation even better!!!
only one more day till i'm done with classes
then on monday i will beheading out to see dangergirl in seattle. its gonna rock!!
yeah.
akasnuggles:
if anybody deserves a vacation it's you. have a great time.
hornitos:
i thought the term was. . 'i need lunch'?
wait. what is the date today?
i'm squinting to see. ok so todays friday
oh. . you're prolly on your way . .
i demand that you have a good time over your vacation. .because i'm a demanding kinda guy.
so there ..
i'll be expecting a lipstick stained napkin from the coolest club you ventured to ..
(if you do that type of thing)
surreal:
have fun!
wait. what is the date today?
i'm squinting to see. ok so todays friday
oh. . you're prolly on your way . .
i demand that you have a good time over your vacation. .because i'm a demanding kinda guy.
so there ..
i'll be expecting a lipstick stained napkin from the coolest club you ventured to ..
(if you do that type of thing)
surreal:
have fun!
thanks for the love 
today is like combining gasoline with turpintine to try to put out a fire....
theres a meet and greet at my favorite bar tonight soooo all drinks will be free,
i don't know if you've noticed but when pissed angry self loathing people get drunk, bad things happen, i will do my best to stay sober, but i have to be...
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today is like combining gasoline with turpintine to try to put out a fire....
theres a meet and greet at my favorite bar tonight soooo all drinks will be free,
i don't know if you've noticed but when pissed angry self loathing people get drunk, bad things happen, i will do my best to stay sober, but i have to be...
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akasnuggles:
the only magazines on the desk are Oct. 05's EGM, the fall CCS catalogue and this years Swiss Colony.
i'm not much for shoes and i've already read the EGM 3 times (high or not, that's alot), so sweets it be, playa.
what's that saying, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of the cure? which is a saying that fits more my escapism techniques. easy switch: finger to a fifth? think it over.
i'm not much for shoes and i've already read the EGM 3 times (high or not, that's alot), so sweets it be, playa.
what's that saying, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of the cure? which is a saying that fits more my escapism techniques. easy switch: finger to a fifth? think it over.
hornitos:
mexican'ts!!
too funny. .
la hentai salutes you
and to answer your question. . yes i have noticed, but i rarely bother unless i'm around family. .
i have the house to myself this weekend . .wanna come over and watch some movies?
i'll wash my comforter and my pillow. . cases?
*shrug
and to entice the offer even more. .i'll steal
any bottle of booze you wish to drink that evening . . (as long as we carry it )
in other bad news . .now that i've shorn off most of my hair , i've come to realize , i might possibly be a pin-head. .
pin-head savant is the term i'm gonna use from now on. .
hope you have a nice weekend. .
too funny. .
la hentai salutes you
and to answer your question. . yes i have noticed, but i rarely bother unless i'm around family. .
i have the house to myself this weekend . .wanna come over and watch some movies?
i'll wash my comforter and my pillow. . cases?
*shrug
and to entice the offer even more. .i'll steal
any bottle of booze you wish to drink that evening . . (as long as we carry it )
in other bad news . .now that i've shorn off most of my hair , i've come to realize , i might possibly be a pin-head. .
pin-head savant is the term i'm gonna use from now on. .
hope you have a nice weekend. .
i feel like damaged goods...
i called a "friend" this evening so that i could talk things out, to try to feel a little better, after having a shitty day, again, i know its hormonal, i know i have issues, i did not, however want to talk about my own short commings, so when said friend took it upon himself to say, "well the reason...
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i called a "friend" this evening so that i could talk things out, to try to feel a little better, after having a shitty day, again, i know its hormonal, i know i have issues, i did not, however want to talk about my own short commings, so when said friend took it upon himself to say, "well the reason...
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hornitos:
sometimes when i'm black and blue, and i happen to be on this web-site, getting more depressed thinking about all the girls i'll never get my clammy little hands on, i check out my 'testimonials' . . and it makes me wonder how, even though i say the most ridiculous, nonsensical and sometimes downright despicable things . .someone see's thru all that and let's me know . .i'm not alone after all . .and they might even consider me a friend or at least cheap entertainment. . so i hope you can crawl to your computer tomorrow and read yours. .
sorry about your head and heart-aches .
wish i could be a pillow for ya, . .even though i'm kinda edgy. . wish i could cleanse ya'.
don't know where that came from . . but it's true. .
sorry about your head and heart-aches .
wish i could be a pillow for ya, . .even though i'm kinda edgy. . wish i could cleanse ya'.
don't know where that came from . . but it's true. .
yeah!!!
yeah for c's...c's get degrees
i was bumed, i went into talk to my stats prof, and try to convince her to let me drop the class, or take an incompleate or something, but she was all nooooo. you have to finish this shit. so then to day we were going over the last examn, which i had scored 69 on, and she threw...
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yeah for c's...c's get degrees
i was bumed, i went into talk to my stats prof, and try to convince her to let me drop the class, or take an incompleate or something, but she was all nooooo. you have to finish this shit. so then to day we were going over the last examn, which i had scored 69 on, and she threw...
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phoolsfire:
today was not the best day of my life part 2...it was bad news bears...luckily i'm still feeling very bi-polar, so i'm not even bothered that one of my friends screwed things up for me in front of a whole bunch of new people...
i was upset at the beginning of this week, because my ugliness was showing, but now i know, that everyone's shows sometime...i'm just glad i have what little grace i do to not transform into a total monster.
i was upset at the beginning of this week, because my ugliness was showing, but now i know, that everyone's shows sometime...i'm just glad i have what little grace i do to not transform into a total monster.
i like cute boys, i got to spend saturday with lots of them 
soooo'
then on sunday i was freakin out cause i had a buncha shite todo, an i finished it monday at like 3am, only to be followed by a 6am wake-up on monday for some buuuuwwshite.
but i gots my shite done and my grad school apps in line, and some other...
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soooo'
then on sunday i was freakin out cause i had a buncha shite todo, an i finished it monday at like 3am, only to be followed by a 6am wake-up on monday for some buuuuwwshite.
but i gots my shite done and my grad school apps in line, and some other...
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latchbeam:
I had the same thing going on with Sara's (actually two sara's and a sarah)!! Good luck! 
Thank God for caller ID!!!!
Thank God for caller ID!!!!
apexxx:
awwww, sorry darlin. i lost her number i think, although i may still have a business card somewhere... hmmm. 
WOW, so many Chrises.
i guess you wont have to worry about calling them the wrong name during... yeah, um personally i dont like it when other people have my first name, so im just stickin with my new pimp name... holla!
WOW, so many Chrises.
i guess you wont have to worry about calling them the wrong name during... yeah, um personally i dont like it when other people have my first name, so im just stickin with my new pimp name... holla! i feel dirty...only not in a good way. i feel like everything i do is somehow less and less important with every passing minute. i feel like i become less and less of a comapssionate and caring person with everyday. i feel bitter. for no reason. i feel lonely and angry. all i want is to do good things without feeling cheep or trite. this...
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solomantra:
There's a great word for your affliction:
Anomie, noun. 1. Social instability caused by erosion of standards and values.
2. Alienation and purposelessness experienced by a person or a class as a result of a lack of standards, values, or ideals.
I've suffered off and on from anomie, as well (esp. in the #2 definition sense).
Maybe you just don't see any reinforcement out there in society for being a good, engaged person. That's why doing good makes you feel "cheap and trite." Depressing, I know...
Anomie, noun. 1. Social instability caused by erosion of standards and values.
2. Alienation and purposelessness experienced by a person or a class as a result of a lack of standards, values, or ideals.
I've suffered off and on from anomie, as well (esp. in the #2 definition sense).
Maybe you just don't see any reinforcement out there in society for being a good, engaged person. That's why doing good makes you feel "cheap and trite." Depressing, I know...
hornitos:
well, howdy doody!
thursday was the worst fucking day!!!
i'm over it.
i had psuedo- date today, it was cute, he tried to hug me after wards.. it was funny.
theres a party tonight, i think i'm gonna stop by and check it out. it will be good for laughs.
in an attempt ot reconcile my money problems i went out and got some new cd's, some velvets,...
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i'm over it.
i had psuedo- date today, it was cute, he tried to hug me after wards.. it was funny.
theres a party tonight, i think i'm gonna stop by and check it out. it will be good for laughs.
in an attempt ot reconcile my money problems i went out and got some new cd's, some velvets,...
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akasnuggles:
fuck thursdays. really, fuckit...i'll give you five bucks if you proper fuck thursday--that motherfucker's always going on about never getting any.
help me out here.
help me out here.
what a horrible fucking day...
i'm going to bed.
i'm going to bed.
ummm
lets talk about my feelings.
i feel lonely..
i feel horney..
i feel like i want a big plate of nachos.
i feel resentfull
i feel like those are all the feelings i have....
i saw my ex today...it was not pleasent...i literally have a bad taste in my mouth from the little bit of vomit that came up at the mear sight of...
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lets talk about my feelings.
i feel lonely..
i feel horney..
i feel like i want a big plate of nachos.
i feel resentfull
i feel like those are all the feelings i have....
i saw my ex today...it was not pleasent...i literally have a bad taste in my mouth from the little bit of vomit that came up at the mear sight of...
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propaganda4u:
Hmmm, Resentful, Horney, Nachos... I can't think of a time when I am not having those feelings.
I have been entertaining the idea about leaving SG too.
I have been entertaining the idea about leaving SG too.
akasnuggles:
i've been thinking about leaving the site
me too. but i've felt that way for a while. i dont read the interviews, i dont check out the girls, all i really do is post in the journal thingie--but i could do that for free most anywhere else.
at this point i'm just here to feel like a part of something. and i dont really even feel that anymore.
bugger.
me too. but i've felt that way for a while. i dont read the interviews, i dont check out the girls, all i really do is post in the journal thingie--but i could do that for free most anywhere else.
at this point i'm just here to feel like a part of something. and i dont really even feel that anymore.
bugger.
i just got done watching the infomercial for the ultimate dance collection...i feel like i'm wasting time here in normal. like i should be in a night club that features franky goes to hollywood and everyone is trying their hardest to defy social norms. why can't i move to new york now... maybe i should try to go to school there. i never really thought...
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akasnuggles:
the think about film making is the audience only sees what you want em to see. you draw the eye, you know? it's a really kinda forceful manipulation.
that and i like the editing process.
who knows, if i fail at this, i might become a playwrite.
how was the nil8 show, btw?
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that and i like the editing process.
who knows, if i fail at this, i might become a playwrite.
how was the nil8 show, btw?
[Edited on Oct 09, 2005 8:47PM]
akasnuggles:
six hours away? that's it? you pussy--you should have went!
here's a crappy low-res thing i did with Basement Show by good ol Nil8. the synching is a little off, and it's mostly snap/slam editing, but it has this really nice Window Licker tag in the front that i'm kinda proud of.
or, as proud as i can be of a shitty low-res thing.
here's a crappy low-res thing i did with Basement Show by good ol Nil8. the synching is a little off, and it's mostly snap/slam editing, but it has this really nice Window Licker tag in the front that i'm kinda proud of.
or, as proud as i can be of a shitty low-res thing.
see, that's "little happiness." that's something to hold you over till big happiness comes.
or not. i could be totally wrong.
i pretty much only notice when things don't go as planed
i totally just never make plans. but i think that has something to do with my anti-commitment stance.
actually, now that i think about it, most everything i do is because i'm afraid of commitment... that's a fuckin breakthru. more on that as i think it over.
still all bird-flued up?
if you don't mind me asking..
are you mad at me?
i haven't heard from you recently.