Some news - I applied for an apartment with one of my friends 
. I'm hoping everything goes okay and we get it. We won't know for 2-4 more days though. I'm sooo nervous.
I'm going to see COHEED!!!!!!!!
on March 10th. 
This will be my FIRST concert ever. I know i'm a little old 
, but my parents never let me do anything when I was younger and then I was waiting for Korn to pop my cherry but...It looks like it was never gunna happen so Next best thing is Coheed. I know they put on an awesome show so I'm fine with Korn not being the first. 
Also theSTART is playing at the knitting factory March 11. Does anyone like/know them? Cuz I really wanna go and I promise you they are awesome. theSTART plus Roxy Epoxy & The Rebound/The Action Design/Love Lik - Check out the other bands and let me know if you wanna go!
The Faint/Ladytron are playing together in April and I really wanna go to that too so again if you know these bands and wanna go - I'm your man. Call me!
Letter to the Girl
Dear *******,
I had some time to think about the past couple of months and I've come to realize a few things. As hard as I try not to trust people because I know exactly what kind of hearts/minds humans have, every once in a while I find myself trusting someone I shouldn't.
This time around, it was you.
I should have realized that a married mother of one is off limits - whether or not I felt you'd be responsive. You should not have been responsive, but you were. I'm not blaming anyone for anything and we both know the fault lies with you AND me.
I'm sure you had your reasons for playing YOUR game. I'm sure you liked the attention, maybe making your husband a little jealous and god knows its fun to pretend and get away from reality for a little while. I too had my reasons for playing your game. At first, it was just fun to flirt and have a little fun. Eventually though I started to believe your game and that's where I went wrong.
Its fun when no one is getting hurt. I was reluctant to let go and believe that you actually liked me, but you're a good deceiver. Very convincing. I believed we had a mutual attraction and a mutual understanding of the situation.
It took me some time to realize but I did. You were only after the attention and I'm sure the ego boost - which I guess is fine. But then why lead me that far on? Don't get me wrong - I was never interested in trying to "date" you or take you from your husband - because there would never be trust and therefore no foundation for a relationship. I was only interested in what you claimed to be offering, which you weren't actually intending on giving in the first place.
Long story short, this is just to explain that I'm not ignoring you for NO reason or just to be an ass. There is a reason and this is it. The protection of what's left of my trust in humanity, my heart and not to mention my ego.
Don't misunderstand - I'm not bitter and I don't hate you - I just can't let myself be used. And that's exactly how I felt that day, regardless of if that was your intention or not. You don't have my attention anymore and you won't. And its not conducive to your marriage or my pride for us to be friends. So this is where I leave you.
- Jenna Saint
PepperJanuary (7:32:02 PM): sometimes i really can't stand myself
TheSyckness44 (7:32:10 PM): why come?
PepperJanuary (7:32:59 PM): because the one thing i want is the one thing i'll never have but because i want it so much i do and say the stupidest things and wind up just getting hurt and looking dumb
. I'm hoping everything goes okay and we get it. We won't know for 2-4 more days though. I'm sooo nervous. I'm going to see COHEED!!!!!!!!
on March 10th. This will be my FIRST concert ever. I know i'm a little old , but my parents never let me do anything when I was younger and then I was waiting for Korn to pop my cherry but...It looks like it was never gunna happen so Next best thing is Coheed. I know they put on an awesome show so I'm fine with Korn not being the first. Also theSTART is playing at the knitting factory March 11. Does anyone like/know them? Cuz I really wanna go and I promise you they are awesome. theSTART plus Roxy Epoxy & The Rebound/The Action Design/Love Lik - Check out the other bands and let me know if you wanna go!
The Faint/Ladytron are playing together in April and I really wanna go to that too so again if you know these bands and wanna go - I'm your man. Call me!
Letter to the Girl
Dear *******,
I had some time to think about the past couple of months and I've come to realize a few things. As hard as I try not to trust people because I know exactly what kind of hearts/minds humans have, every once in a while I find myself trusting someone I shouldn't.
This time around, it was you.
I should have realized that a married mother of one is off limits - whether or not I felt you'd be responsive. You should not have been responsive, but you were. I'm not blaming anyone for anything and we both know the fault lies with you AND me.
I'm sure you had your reasons for playing YOUR game. I'm sure you liked the attention, maybe making your husband a little jealous and god knows its fun to pretend and get away from reality for a little while. I too had my reasons for playing your game. At first, it was just fun to flirt and have a little fun. Eventually though I started to believe your game and that's where I went wrong.
Its fun when no one is getting hurt. I was reluctant to let go and believe that you actually liked me, but you're a good deceiver. Very convincing. I believed we had a mutual attraction and a mutual understanding of the situation.
It took me some time to realize but I did. You were only after the attention and I'm sure the ego boost - which I guess is fine. But then why lead me that far on? Don't get me wrong - I was never interested in trying to "date" you or take you from your husband - because there would never be trust and therefore no foundation for a relationship. I was only interested in what you claimed to be offering, which you weren't actually intending on giving in the first place.
Long story short, this is just to explain that I'm not ignoring you for NO reason or just to be an ass. There is a reason and this is it. The protection of what's left of my trust in humanity, my heart and not to mention my ego.
Don't misunderstand - I'm not bitter and I don't hate you - I just can't let myself be used. And that's exactly how I felt that day, regardless of if that was your intention or not. You don't have my attention anymore and you won't. And its not conducive to your marriage or my pride for us to be friends. So this is where I leave you.
- Jenna Saint
PepperJanuary (7:32:02 PM): sometimes i really can't stand myself
TheSyckness44 (7:32:10 PM): why come?
PepperJanuary (7:32:59 PM): because the one thing i want is the one thing i'll never have but because i want it so much i do and say the stupidest things and wind up just getting hurt and looking dumb
minxxy:
Im going to that concert 2!!!!!!!!
pinke:
yes yes come with me please but when i cryy dont laugh at me !