I have not been well even after 3 days after my ECT treatment I've been feeling bad. I'm tired of of it, only feeling better for a few days, than blam down hill quick after that. I've been drinking more lately, not abusive but getting there. I don't have the life left in me to handle past addictions or even new ones. I haven't used any colombian stuff for almost 3 months now. I feel a little better addictiveness wise but not really soul wise. I did some opiates a week and a half ago and really felt well for a short while. Classic itchyness, no one becomes a opiate addict over night. It takes getting used to and then actually wanting to in some way feel it again. Whatever I'm not going to switch or take up new addictions. Or at least I'm going to give it a try. I've tried so many legal drugs in hopes of getting better, and illegal ones too, current and in the close past. Neither seems to help any, but at least illegal ones give you that high that you're not so supposed to experience because of certain laws. I don't know what if much what I'm talking about, sorry.
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