I'm caught in an eddy
treading water and dizzy
how do i escape this whirlpool?
which way do i swim?
or is it futile to even try?
perhaps if I quiet my mind and relax my body
the current will take me downstream
...where waterfalls and jagged rocks are no doubt ahead
or I could take the hand from someone on shore
and sit beneath an apple tree to dry and reorient myself
but what would I then owe in return?
...my life?
...gratitude and love are not the same
treading water and dizzy
how do i escape this whirlpool?
which way do i swim?
or is it futile to even try?
perhaps if I quiet my mind and relax my body
the current will take me downstream
...where waterfalls and jagged rocks are no doubt ahead
or I could take the hand from someone on shore
and sit beneath an apple tree to dry and reorient myself
but what would I then owe in return?
...my life?
...gratitude and love are not the same
and as jaded and awful as it sounds, i have realized over the years that sometimes love isn't enough on it's own, I have a hopeless romantic and a realist living inside my head and those two are constantly at odds with each other