Tuesday Feb 26, 2013

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I gotta say, getting old is getting me down. Yeah, I know, I'm not THAT old, but it's happening. Love and adventure have become distant dreams of my youth. I ought not complain much though. Those years were good, blessed with loves and adventures to entertain my memories for years to come. But now, the mundane is my master. I live a monastic...
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abjabber:

You'll be missed frown

devith5044:

I think mine runs out next month.
I am probably going to take the same path.

all my best

Monday Feb 11, 2013

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It was bound to happen sooner or later...

...that disturbing moment when looking at a set, transfixed on a model who reminds me of a lover from my memories. And then, a little math whispers in my ear, "She could be your daughter."

yikes
dwam:

Thanks for your love on my set ! kiss
But indeed the title is wrong - I guess the photographer kinda messed it up a bit when he submitted the set.

Saturday Feb 09, 2013

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presently


I want to create a future

that isn't


so fucking
dystopian



smile




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devilins:

thank for comm , is not its just black tree smile

bettybruises:

This.

Is why I'm leaving Southern California.

(c;

Friday Feb 08, 2013

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you must watch


MUST, i say!!








(the effect is sooo much better on a bigger screen and with decent speakers ....soooo, just watch the whole thing, ok, yah?)
devilins:

wow so great

abjabber:

Nice! biggrin

Thursday Jan 31, 2013

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so, this week had me thinking
ha! ...a shocker

thinking a bit about my last post

when i wrote it I had other thoughts in mind than the ones that actually manifested through the interface of phalangeal articulation upon my keyboard


so, i felt a bit disingenuous
what with the final product not exactly resembling anything all that personal or revealing

or so i thought...
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abjabber:

Thanks for the compliment biggrin I'm glad I inspired your creativity. Someday I've got to sample some cider. I can always barter some art prints for a bottle wink

abjabber:

Good luck with the cider pub, let me know if you need any art done for it. I usually take about a week or two to complete a project, depending on its complexity. wink Take care.

Wednesday Jan 23, 2013

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Something I really like about rambling here, is that I can express ideas and parts of myself that would otherwise probably shock, scare or confuse my stock facebook acquaintance. I don't mean to belittle them, mind you (nor elevate you, for that matter). It's just an observation. Maybe I'm more comfortable with disclosure in these particular confines. Certainly I am in good...
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bettybruises:

I feel the same way about this place.
Writing on here just feels easier when it comes to certain things.

And yeah, there is so much ugliness happening in the world, I find myself wondering if it's always been happening and I'm just now noticing, or if our collective conscious is having a melt down somehow. blackeyed

Enjoy yourself, and perhaps soon, I will be up in your neck of the woods and more present than I was when you saw me last and able to sit and have a beer or whiskey with you smile

bettybruises:

A cider sounds delightful!!

As far as those demons go, I am breathing and immersing myself in art and music, both of which have always been soul healing. That and lots of quiet reflective time smile

Thursday Jan 17, 2013

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hello all you beautiful souls in SG land


it's time again to wander inside my mind




today is a likable day



if for no other reason than that's what I feel




the daylight fills this room
and wood from blessed trees warms its soul
and mine

i give thanks to those trees
and others
for their fruit and their fire
and eventually their...
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lumo:

Good to see you are in a positive frame of mind <3

cudnovati:

good stuff.

Friday Nov 30, 2012

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hmmm, it's update time, i s'pose.

It's past 2 pm and I'm still lingering in bed. I have virtually no work lined up this week, which is a blessing of sorts in that I get some much needed time to relax, but the loss of income always makes me a little nervous. Still, it's better to embrace the blessing than...
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bettybruises:

<3 Thank you for that.

And getting away to have coffee/tea with you last weekend helped (even if I was a still really rattled and a little out of it). And of course it was just nice being able to sit and chat for a bit smile

flogging_mayra:

Actually I've always been able to lucid dream and manipulate everything while i'm dreaming but my body knows it's not being produced in real life so I actually get even more anxious frown

Friday Oct 26, 2012

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ugh, that old post is getting tattered and dusty

...time for a new one


let's see...

it's winter, or damn near close enough

I actually read somewhere that the concept of seasons has gone through a variety of phases in nearly every culture. Around here, there's pretty much rainy and not-rainy (or at least that's my current paradigm ...come spring things...
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nene:

You are so right -- it could be much worse. One thing I've learned over the years -- airing my little vents in public does make them seem much smaller.

I have always loved this time of year. The cold and the dark. A time for introspection or as you say, reacquainting oneself with their inner hearth.

There is nothing dreary about that.

smile

lilli:

I did actually arm myself with rose quartz (to soothe my heart) and lapis (for psychic protection) the next time I went to work... but the lil dude was absent that day! Haha.

Enjoy your rainy solitude and self-reacquaintance. Blessings to you. ♥

Friday Sep 21, 2012

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Here I am again, neglectful of my duty to keep all you hungry readers satiated with regular updates about my oh-so-intriguing life.

I'll endeavor to dress up the mundane a bit in order to make it seem a bit more worthwhile.

Ahh, well now, last time I was here I had rambled on a bit about a break-up and my radical excursions into ancient...
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lumo:

Hey! I missed you b-day the other day *massive hug* Hope it was epic love! As for weird body conditioning, I still bruise sometimes cos since forever I bruise like a peach but its getting better, hopefully eventually I will be as lucky as you!

bettybruises:

haha right?
i try to not promote the hate either, but i died laughing at that wink

Sunday Jul 22, 2012

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I've been meaning to update my blog here for months now. I had wanted to tell tales of being in love, infectious smiles, sparkly eyes, great dates, amazing food, awesome music and other moments of joy.

But alas, those times have passed and are now just fading memories. Indeed, I'm single again and forlorn and heartbroken. Oh, I fell hard for that woman...
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nene:

So sorry to hear about your troubles as well my dear friend. And I will add to BB's comment on the "not an easy guy to be in love with" part.... I've always said: there is a BIG difference between acting like an asshole and being an asshole (this applies to both males and females). Recognizing things within yourself and trying to improve upon them shows that you are very aware of your behavior. I applaud you for that.

It was very hard for me to do. I was slipping in and out of depression and it needed to stop. At least this way, I ended it on my own terms and with some sort of closure. Not something we all get. I'm not the easiest person to love either but I can say that I tried my best.

I don't go out looking and I don't give my heart away often. But I do have some great friends here to keep me company. Being back in the ranks of the single means I can jump back into my Northern Path studies. I've neglected them for so long.

Blessed be to you as well.

kiss

sweetkc:

Sorry to hear about this. Hope life is going better for you lately smile

Sunday Mar 11, 2012

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dare I say it?

I mean, I don't want jinx it

but, two dates in

and I think I'm already falling in love


I was so determined to remain focused on my tasks at hand

but life had much greater plans

And so fun how it all played out

divine little coincidences every step along the way



oh, she makes me melt and...
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bettybruises:

hmmmm crafty move wink
well played sir!

sweetkc:

Yes, better luck to both of us! I'm sorry to hear things didn't work out for you. Lost love is such a disappointment but always a lesson learned. Take care of yourself smile