I gotta say, getting old is getting me down. Yeah, I know, I'm not THAT old, but it's happening. Love and adventure have become distant dreams of my youth. I ought not complain much though. Those years were good, blessed with loves and adventures to entertain my memories for years to come. But now, the mundane is my master. I live a monastic life. I...
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abjabber:
You'll be missed 
devith5044:
I think mine runs out next month.
I am probably going to take the same path.
all my best
I am probably going to take the same path.
all my best
It was bound to happen sooner or later...
...that disturbing moment when looking at a set, transfixed on a model who reminds me of a lover from my memories. And then, a little math whispers in my ear, "She could be your daughter."
yikes
dwam:
Thanks for your love on my set ! 
But indeed the title is wrong - I guess the photographer kinda messed it up a bit when he submitted the set.
But indeed the title is wrong - I guess the photographer kinda messed it up a bit when he submitted the set.
presently
I want to create a future
that isn't
so fucking
dystopian
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devon:
thank for comm , is not its just black tree
bettybruises:
This.
Is why I'm leaving Southern California.
(c;
Is why I'm leaving Southern California.
(c;
you must watch
MUST, i say!!
(the effect is sooo much better on a bigger screen and with decent speakers ....soooo, just watch the whole thing, ok, yah?)
MUST, i say!!
(the effect is sooo much better on a bigger screen and with decent speakers ....soooo, just watch the whole thing, ok, yah?)
devon:
wow so great
abjabber:
Nice! 
so, this week had me thinking
ha! ...a shocker
thinking a bit about my last post
when i wrote it I had other thoughts in mind than the ones that actually manifested through the interface of phalangeal articulation upon my keyboard
so, i felt a bit disingenuous
what with the final product not exactly resembling anything all that personal or revealing
or so i thought...
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ha! ...a shocker
thinking a bit about my last post
when i wrote it I had other thoughts in mind than the ones that actually manifested through the interface of phalangeal articulation upon my keyboard
so, i felt a bit disingenuous
what with the final product not exactly resembling anything all that personal or revealing
or so i thought...
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abjabber:
Thanks for the compliment I'm glad I inspired your creativity. Someday I've got to sample some cider. I can always barter some art prints for a bottle 
I'm glad I inspired your creativity. Someday I've got to sample some cider. I can always barter some art prints for a bottle
abjabber:
Good luck with the cider pub, let me know if you need any art done for it. I usually take about a week or two to complete a project, depending on its complexity. Take care.
Take care. Something I really like about rambling here, is that I can express ideas and parts of myself that would otherwise probably shock, scare or confuse my stock facebook acquaintance. I don't mean to belittle them, mind you (nor elevate you, for that matter). It's just an observation. Maybe I'm more comfortable with disclosure in these particular confines. Certainly I am in good company as far...
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bettybruises:
I feel the same way about this place.
Writing on here just feels easier when it comes to certain things.
And yeah, there is so much ugliness happening in the world, I find myself wondering if it's always been happening and I'm just now noticing, or if our collective conscious is having a melt down somehow.
Enjoy yourself, and perhaps soon, I will be up in your neck of the woods and more present than I was when you saw me last and able to sit and have a beer or whiskey with you
Writing on here just feels easier when it comes to certain things.
And yeah, there is so much ugliness happening in the world, I find myself wondering if it's always been happening and I'm just now noticing, or if our collective conscious is having a melt down somehow.
Enjoy yourself, and perhaps soon, I will be up in your neck of the woods and more present than I was when you saw me last and able to sit and have a beer or whiskey with you
bettybruises:
A cider sounds delightful!!
As far as those demons go, I am breathing and immersing myself in art and music, both of which have always been soul healing. That and lots of quiet reflective time
As far as those demons go, I am breathing and immersing myself in art and music, both of which have always been soul healing. That and lots of quiet reflective time
hello all you beautiful souls in SG land
it's time again to wander inside my mind
today is a likable day
if for no other reason than that's what I feel
the daylight fills this room
and wood from blessed trees warms its soul
and mine
i give thanks to those trees
and others
for their fruit and their fire
and eventually their shade
I...
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lumo:
Good to see you are in a positive frame of mind <3
cudnovati:
good stuff.
hmmm, it's update time, i s'pose.
It's past 2 pm and I'm still lingering in bed. I have virtually no work lined up this week, which is a blessing of sorts in that I get some much needed time to relax, but the loss of income always makes me a little nervous. Still, it's better to embrace the blessing than swim in the fear.
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It's past 2 pm and I'm still lingering in bed. I have virtually no work lined up this week, which is a blessing of sorts in that I get some much needed time to relax, but the loss of income always makes me a little nervous. Still, it's better to embrace the blessing than swim in the fear.
So,...
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bettybruises:
<3 Thank you for that.
And getting away to have coffee/tea with you last weekend helped (even if I was a still really rattled and a little out of it). And of course it was just nice being able to sit and chat for a bit
And getting away to have coffee/tea with you last weekend helped (even if I was a still really rattled and a little out of it). And of course it was just nice being able to sit and chat for a bit
flogging_mayra:
Actually I've always been able to lucid dream and manipulate everything while i'm dreaming but my body knows it's not being produced in real life so I actually get even more anxious
ugh, that old post is getting tattered and dusty
...time for a new one
let's see...
it's winter, or damn near close enough
I actually read somewhere that the concept of seasons has gone through a variety of phases in nearly every culture. Around here, there's pretty much rainy and not-rainy (or at least that's my current paradigm ...come spring things will be undoubtedly different...
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nene:
You are so right -- it could be much worse. One thing I've learned over the years -- airing my little vents in public does make them seem much smaller.
I have always loved this time of year. The cold and the dark. A time for introspection or as you say, reacquainting oneself with their inner hearth.
There is nothing dreary about that.
I have always loved this time of year. The cold and the dark. A time for introspection or as you say, reacquainting oneself with their inner hearth.
There is nothing dreary about that.
lilli:
I did actually arm myself with rose quartz (to soothe my heart) and lapis (for psychic protection) the next time I went to work... but the lil dude was absent that day! Haha.
Enjoy your rainy solitude and self-reacquaintance. Blessings to you. ♥
Enjoy your rainy solitude and self-reacquaintance. Blessings to you. ♥
Here I am again, neglectful of my duty to keep all you hungry readers satiated with regular updates about my oh-so-intriguing life.
I'll endeavor to dress up the mundane a bit in order to make it seem a bit more worthwhile.
Ahh, well now, last time I was here I had rambled on a bit about a break-up and my radical excursions into ancient rejuvenative...
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I'll endeavor to dress up the mundane a bit in order to make it seem a bit more worthwhile.
Ahh, well now, last time I was here I had rambled on a bit about a break-up and my radical excursions into ancient rejuvenative...
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lumo:
Hey! I missed you b-day the other day *massive hug* Hope it was epic love! As for weird body conditioning, I still bruise sometimes cos since forever I bruise like a peach but its getting better, hopefully eventually I will be as lucky as you!
bettybruises:
haha right?
i try to not promote the hate either, but i died laughing at that
i try to not promote the hate either, but i died laughing at that
I've been meaning to update my blog here for months now. I had wanted to tell tales of being in love, infectious smiles, sparkly eyes, great dates, amazing food, awesome music and other moments of joy.
But alas, those times have passed and are now just fading memories. Indeed, I'm single again and forlorn and heartbroken. Oh, I fell hard for that woman, but she...
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nene:
So sorry to hear about your troubles as well my dear friend. And I will add to BB's comment on the "not an easy guy to be in love with" part.... I've always said: there is a BIG difference between acting like an asshole and being an asshole (this applies to both males and females). Recognizing things within yourself and trying to improve upon them shows that you are very aware of your behavior. I applaud you for that.
It was very hard for me to do. I was slipping in and out of depression and it needed to stop. At least this way, I ended it on my own terms and with some sort of closure. Not something we all get. I'm not the easiest person to love either but I can say that I tried my best.
I don't go out looking and I don't give my heart away often. But I do have some great friends here to keep me company. Being back in the ranks of the single means I can jump back into my Northern Path studies. I've neglected them for so long.
Blessed be to you as well.
It was very hard for me to do. I was slipping in and out of depression and it needed to stop. At least this way, I ended it on my own terms and with some sort of closure. Not something we all get. I'm not the easiest person to love either but I can say that I tried my best.
I don't go out looking and I don't give my heart away often. But I do have some great friends here to keep me company. Being back in the ranks of the single means I can jump back into my Northern Path studies. I've neglected them for so long.
Blessed be to you as well.
sweetkc:
Sorry to hear about this. Hope life is going better for you lately