palangi

I need a job. I need money, which generally requires a job to fix the problem. I want to travel and I want to live in my own apartment or something. Once again, it requires money, which requires a job. This sucks. Why can's we be communists? Stupid capitalism.

I can't sleep. Lately I've been having nightmares that wake me up in the middle of night, constantly, so I figure what's the point of sleeping? It might be stress, I dunno.

My aunt is having triplets. She already has twins. Five kids in two shots. She'd been trying to have babies for awhile and now she gets five in two sittings. Nice.

My dad told me that my only purpose in life is to get married and have babies. If I do that while having a job, I need to quite it because being a mother is the most important thing i'll ever do. Sometimes I really dislike my dad. What's the point of having a college education if that's all I'm gonna do? I know he gets it from the Bible and it's what the Bible says I should do, but it's not what I really want to do. I mean, I want kids, eventually, but I don't want to center my whole existence around just that. Fuck, I want them, but I can't stand them. Anyway, it's not very reassuring coming from the guy who left my mother because she was trying to be a stay at home mom.

My wrists hurt and i need to do homework.