Turning 21 was not all it was made out to be. Now It just seemed like alot of wasted anticipation. I fell asleep in the d.m.v. today and awoke to a group of people, mostly old men, staring at me that were not there when i fell asleep. It was probably the closest thing i've ever had happen to a nightmare coming true. And all...
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iggy:
my 21st birthday ws not all that wonderful either...but actually being 21 is awesome cause now i am restriced from nowhere...which is awesome. Now that you are 21 you can come meet me in the city for a few beers at a couple bars i frequent that are actually not all that expensive....new digital license huh..maybe i should get me one of those...though in some places the bartenders or bouncers think mine is fake as is. They practically dissect the thing....maybe its cause i look like i am 16...
another weekend passes by without anything worthy to write about. Next weekend will be good though, i actually made plans to go out and do something, wow. tommorow on the other hand will suck. work then d.m.v. then school including a midterm. here's the good part though, after school i think i'll go to the bar. Wow that sounds awkward. I never thought i'd live...
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We went to meet her
Not for me but for a friend
who is tired of being alone
She ends up beatiful
more than i could expect
and maybe they hit it off.
on the ride home
they talked about how he's insecure
how he's tired of being alone
meanwhile i'm in the backseat
never once relating
i must be a champion
a master of...
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Not for me but for a friend
who is tired of being alone
She ends up beatiful
more than i could expect
and maybe they hit it off.
on the ride home
they talked about how he's insecure
how he's tired of being alone
meanwhile i'm in the backseat
never once relating
i must be a champion
a master of...
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i went to the movies last night and saw Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind. I don't expect much from movies but I was truly touched by this one. It really hit home in ways that make you realize there is another world out there with people just like you in it. i decided even though I'm pretty much over the crush I'm going to...
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iggy:
actually in a bizarre twist of events the mid term was cancelled..... yeah i am all about telling people how i feel or how i felt at one time...i hate wondering what could have been i would rather just get it out into the open...and everyone keeps telling me to see eternal sunshine...but i hate going to the movies, it makes me nervous....
today i was lecturing to friends about how deceitful the catholic church is, mostly using references from the DaVinci Code and every book Anton LaVey ever wrote only to discover one of the people listening was a devout catholic. she don't like me no more. This is what i get for having an opinion that is not accepted by the general public. This is what...
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iggy:
no that is what she gets for being close minded. She can be a devout catholic, but she should be able to accept other peoples opinions with grace. Its her problem...not yours...and if she isn't going to like you anymore cause of your opinion on her religion, well she isn't worth knowing anyway.
I went the entire wekend without clubbing, drinking, getting less than five hours of sleep a night or having a cigarette. i would think I'd feel good after killing all these bad habits but I feel so fucking empty right now I can't even put it into words. i think I'm transitioning now, from what it is unclear and to what it is unsure.Bitts hilfe 
iggy:
i did the same...no clubbing, no drinking...yeah i feel antsy and empty right now too....
this is the dullest saturday in quite awhile. I took some old pills that were lying around ina pathetic attempt to escape if only for a moment and all they did was make me tired. i've only been up for eighteen hours, there is no fun in that. Sitting here is terrible yes, but the feeling will prove beneficial to where i am in writing...
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everyone stared at me in color theory today for my sick piece of artwork i did for homework. Kind of ironic how the things i am most proud of always end up getting me the most exploited. I could give a fuck less what they think though. I create to express not to satisfy others. If they like what I'm doing it's merely coincidental. I...
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iggy:
yeah i will play songs sometimes in class and people will stare at me as well...you are not alone...only i am musician, not a painter.....
what a bad weekend it was. i ended up ina hiphop nightclub and I'm really not a hiphop person. It was good though, get out do things with friends.it's a life. I haven't called the crush in two days now and I'm really feeling better about myself than i used to. i had my horoscope read in the city last week at two in the...
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iggy:
dude if i had ended up in a hip hop nightclub i would have killed myself....unless i was drunk...wait no...i still would have killed myself...
how difficult it is to get over what could've been-(sigh). i'm getting better though, one step at a time. think i'm just not gonna care anymore from this point on. Ich bin krank auf der schnee, es ist tso viel. Ich brache gehen tso wo ich mog der schnee, mog Osterreich. Wie besser es ist dort. was eine gut woche fur Spring Break. iggy, your...
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iggy:
so difficult to get over what could have been...today i was reading an LJ entry by this guy who i was crushing on like whoa...and he was talking about how great it is to fuck his new girlfriend....yeah...so...
but you can keep speaking to me in german...mmmmmm...
hey i was in hopatcong the other day...i have a freind who lives there.....
thanks for appreciating and understanding my comments on sex and depression...i recently just started telling people how i feel and frankly, it has gone over most peoples heads. I wil tell people how i feel and they still ask to have sex with me...they just don't get it....
at least you got it...not only did you get it you understood...
but you can keep speaking to me in german...mmmmmm...
hey i was in hopatcong the other day...i have a freind who lives there.....
thanks for appreciating and understanding my comments on sex and depression...i recently just started telling people how i feel and frankly, it has gone over most peoples heads. I wil tell people how i feel and they still ask to have sex with me...they just don't get it....
at least you got it...not only did you get it you understood...