Having all this free time from school really sucks in alot of ways. Back then I used to get things done and have more will. Now it takes effort just to pick up the phone and dial numbers. Of course when school starts again I'll be bitching again i have no time. There's just no in between. I've got to find something better in life,...
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Alcohol is a depressant, or so they say. Yes alcohol is bad and evil and all that filigree but at the same time it's really not. Yes, right now I may be buzzed and it is more evident that I'm depressed as hell and i have a lower opinion of myself and being single now hurts worse than ever- but simeataneously I'm able to deal...
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iggy:
yeah i feel that way about alcohol too...makes being single easier to deal with...makes a lot of things easier to deal with i would say....summer is confusing isn't it...well being in sussex county doesn't help either...i just had to get the hell out of there....
No, not leaving, nowhere to go and nothing to do..after all this is Sussex County and when the weather is bad what else is there to do. Internet addiction, it sucks, but it's cheaper than alcohol and gasoline. think i just need to limit the hours spent. Good luck at the new job Iggy. Everyone messes up at the beginning but you'll get used to...
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spending everyday waiting for something new and exciting to come along just isn't enough anymore. The computer.. the computer is of no use to me anymore. Damn dehuman machine, how many hours I've spent on you losing my little sense of humanity.the weather is too nice, the people i'll never know too interesting, and the music, oh far too much for the ear to ever...
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iggy:
does that mean you are leaving us? c'mon internet addiction ain't so bad is it?? yeah i started losing msyelf..i just had to step away...but c'mon, in sussex county there really is little else to do...(i am here right now...) there aren't too many interesting people here, or perhaps i am just jaded...
Finished with school. for one more semester it is over, 3.5 months of working more, ewww. The color theory though said i have definate potential, that i should read more and look at more artwork. i should. Left class and went to an invite only show of Empire Hideous. They're so good. It's awkward knowing all of them, but in a good way. Afterwords sat...
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need more sleep, less finals, more thunderstorms,less humidity
I want to sit in a room all day long and do nothing but create. I don't want anyone to come in, I don't want to go out. I just want to be alone with my thoughts, they are so much more pleasent when I'm alone. alone, not worrying about anything, not having anything to worry about....
I was filled with such an emptiness this morning I just didn't want to get up. It wasn't the usual less than 6 hours of sleep again it was something different this time. I went to 2 finals today and said goodbye to the punk girl who sat next to me who's starting in school in California in 6 weeks. yeah, we exchanged numbers and...
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Everything tried to stop me from going to see Perfect Circle-people 90 minutes late, traffic, and finally the person driving getting in an accident on the way there. But I made it. and did i drink to celebrate. The seats we had were shitty but out of the blue these two girls knew the girl I was wish and said they had an extra pair...
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3 finals, 2weeks, and one more painting till it's over. I look forward to drinking the summer away.I should be studying or painting. Fortunately all I can think of now is that it's 20 short hours before Perfect Circle. I'm so happy I can't sleep. 
iggy:
i wish i were going to see a perfect circle...