Wow. It is really awkward to look at this site while at school. There is some fat guy sitting next to me right now eating a sandwich and glancing over at my screen like he's never seen a naked woman before, he probably hasn't actually. A.C. was good and bad. I lost $150, but in all reality i've never had so much fun losing money in my life. It was good to party with friends and still know there is a life out there waiting for me. I'm so tired though I can barely function. Finally two days without work or school and I sleep less than when I have both. This weeks not going to be better. My parents went down for the rest of the week and I'm alone in the house with the ability to buy alcohol. hehehe. I think when I finally get out of here-fuck it's still not till four hours more- i'll pick up a nice bottle of wine, Merlot or the such. Iggy I can relate to what you say about leaving it all behind. This morning i was driving to work at 5:30 watching the sun slowly begin to rise when I thought to myself what's the point? Why do I subjugate myself to getting up at this ungodly hour to go to a place I don't want to go for money that gets me nowhere. It sucks that things have to be this way. I would love to sit around all day and create- yet all i do is work at a menial job where all it ever is is routine, nothing more or less. I also get the feeling that I bother absolutely everyone I know- especially when you call someone and they take days to call back. I tend to blame it on myself even though it's usually they're busy doing other things. you definately don't bother me though, you intrigue me. We should meet up for beers soon talk more. Think I will go to other side of library now, sleep briefly in one of those cubical like thingies. bis spater.
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