Sunday Jan 04, 2004

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i've been sick all weekend.

picked up my girl from the airport only to be able to just drop her off and go back home due to still feeling like shit.

i really hope this goes away by tomorrow. the worst is over.

i guess i should be thankful this only happens to me once or twice every few years...
actuallynotyou:
Every one is sick.. I've been sick on and off since Halloween, i woul d just like to say Fuck being sick..
Feel better..

Wednesday Dec 31, 2003

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happy new year, everyone.

i'm off to get plastered...blackeyed

take care!
delilahb:
how was the plastering?

I need to drink.

alcohol=good.

Wednesday Dec 24, 2003

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this has been a pretty good week so far. hit it off pretty well with the girl i met last week, we've been hanging out quite a bit. i dunno where i stand on a new relationship yet, however. i'm pretty much in a mindset of just seeing where things lead.

i got the coolest present from my friend on tuesday. she doesn't always act...
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adeline:
Glad to see you are doing good. I'm peachy, I think. I'm in Tampa for a little while visiting some friends...when I get back up to Jax beach we should meet...I only met navy guys so far and a few northerners who have relocated like moi. Navy guys are ummm...in a class all their own.
delilahb:
how's the new girl, sir sauve?

Thursday Dec 18, 2003

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so i met my mom and the girl she works with for lunch today. it actually went pretty well, as well as it could i guess.

as well as i could gather from a little under an hour of meeting was that i think there's potential there. i was a bit taken aback that said person actually wanted to meet me(self-doubt rules!).

i finally understand...
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vivadeath:
Hope it goes well for you. I live by the "Dont expect too much, and you might not be let down." Good luck with her.
vivadeath:
Any progress on the lunch date? Hope all went well.

Wednesday Dec 17, 2003

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i've not much to say. life is pretty much a broken record this week, and i've just been going through the motions and keeping up appearances.

i agreed to meet the girl my mom wants to set me up with. i figure, what the hell?
there's no use waiting anymore for someone who doesn't want to come back to me, or at least doesn't want...
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vivadeath:
There is nothing harder than trying to be friends with someone you once loved. You go through all the post-breakup motions of "lets still remain friends", but it seems like doing that is even harder to deal with than the breakup it's self. It really is hard to be around someone knowing that you were once consumed by your love for them and now it is all gone. It is even harder when they know it, but dont seem to care.

Monday Dec 15, 2003

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it's really cold outside. i can't sleep. i can't stop thinking about past events in my life i no longer have any control over. lost love. lost friends. lost hope. squandered potential.

i know it can't be normal to feel like there's no brighter future for me at age 28. there has to be some fight left in me, somewhere. some spark of defiance that...
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vivadeath:
Women. Can't live with them, can't bury them in the back yard.
azrael_abyss:
YAY FOR JAX PEOPLE! I was just there for Thanksgiving.

Friday Dec 12, 2003

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another week down.

im thankful to have this weekend off. i need to do some holiday shopping though. i may wish i was back at the office after running the gauntlet shopping tomorrow. blackeyed

my mom has been trying to set me up with someone she works with. i suppose it wouldn't hurt to meet her, but my mom has absolutely no idea what i'm looking...
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Wednesday Dec 10, 2003

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i haven't updated lately. i haven't really had much to say.

life seems to be mocking me lately. it's nothing new, yet it hurts every time.

i just hope that just once in this life i will know what it really feels like to be happy.
t3chmonkey:
No you don't want that. Such sharp contrast. May you wish to never know true pain or pleasure.

May you wish for moderation.
t3chmonkey:
the good thing about moderate goals is that they're pretty achievable.

Jesus, I'm really selling underachievement here. Good luck. Shouldn't take much.

Sunday Nov 30, 2003

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i got a little bad news today.

my best friend's dad died this weekend and he's coming home for the funeral. it will be great to see him, but it's such a sad circumstance. his dad lived with him in california for a while before coming back here this summer, and i had been meaning to go visit for a long time. now it's too...
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delilahb:
all is well, for right now at least. I'm having one of those nights where I feel nothing but pity on myself. I'm such a loser. How are things there?
delilahb:
thanks for the b-day wishes. I really appreciated them!

I hope things are going well.

Friday Nov 28, 2003

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another thanksgiving down.

here it is by the numbers-

5- minute intervals in which yet another member of my family asks where my ex is.

2- houses to visit. meaning 2 meals. i never want to eat again.

9- time in the morning i had to be at work today.

5- hours my friends spent in line at best buy trying to get what they...
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stacie:
5 hours?!?!? eeek
what the hell was so hot at best buy?
I hate holiday shopping. Hate it! I prefer to do as much as possible on line smile
stacie:
ooh.. okay.. that makes sense then. there was some commerical on the other nite for a store that was called the $199 computer or something very similar to that. I thought that was somewhat scary. I cant imagine a store dedicated to that would carry very good computers..
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