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Very confused, very stressed.
Seems like my reality is fading into the woodwork.
Very odd feeling.
I don't like being like this- cold, insecure.

Tonight I hung out with some good friends, very insightful.
I cannot complain by the people I have surrounded myself with- those I was born with, those I chose to be with, he whom I chose to pursue a relationship with-...
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Dear fellow members, SG's, hopefuls, whatever...

I would like: a cosmopolitan, some pot, a red bull, my boyfriend, new undies and six hours of free time.
That is all. I'm gonna crack some skull if the weekend doesn't come soon.


xo

Today was a pretty okay day, went up to visit the misters' parents for his dad's birthday. I'm glad I get along well with his family.
Last night was nice too, just hung out for our (second) six month anniversary. It's complete cheese, but I figured, why not? Just because we did it once already (our relationship totals now to about two and a half...
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Today, I`m hiding in my boyfriedns bed, making an attempt at homework and making an attempt at painting my toes and fingers.
To put it simply, i`m hiding from the real world, even though it`s a beautiful day and the sun is somewhat shining. `ve been doing a lot of philosophical thinking in relation to the way everything is going and the level of stress...
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Hello hello! So my last post was slightly boring, sorry about that, sometimes I just need to vent about things that are of little consequence.
I'm so damn happy it's friday night! I am currently sitting in my little corner at my boyfriends' friends place, lurking through the ladies on the site. They're listening to metal and playing worms. I will never understand men and...
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I just can't stop, this week has been insane, I haven't really eaten anything solid in two days. I've also smoked way past my cigarette quota, and availability...
I had my meeting last night which absaloutley scared the shit out of me. By fluke, myself, another young member and two new workers got voted onto the collective of an already-failing organisation. There are 500 evaluations...
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Today I feel like I am sitting in a downwards spiral, and it's not even 10 am yet. I have work... and then a collective meeting for the organisation I collaborate with... bah! The last thing you ever want to do is go into a planning meeting for a sexual assault center; to talk about finances and more importantly, the centers' survivors, when you are...
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So, it's official. I am an insomniac and there is no way i'm sleeping for the next little bit. I have sucessfully spent the better part of the past three hours on SG looking at all these photos, and i've got to say, i'm super impressed... happy that I didn't waste my money (yet slightly less happy that I have to actually PAY).

I swear...
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Ahhhh! The weekend is already over, it was pretty super.
First and foremost, if anyone knows how to delete these blog posts, please let me know, I didn't realize you couldn't remove them (or can I???).
I spent the weekend being cozy with the mister, making plans for moving out, kinda sorta letting it sink into the family... also, I spent friday night with the...
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You make me insecure.

I love you, and i'd do anything to keep loving you,
But the thought of you and anyone else is unthinkable
The reprecussions on my part, at least, are unliveable.
Yet the action in the past has been forgiveable-
It's no wonder sometimes i'm miserable.
It's not that i'm over protective, i'm careful
Well aware or what could or couldn't happen...
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