ona

Very confused, very stressed.
Seems like my reality is fading into the woodwork.
Very odd feeling.
I don't like being like this- cold, insecure.

Tonight I hung out with some good friends, very insightful.
I cannot complain by the people I have surrounded myself with- those I was born with, those I chose to be with, he whom I chose to pursue a relationship with-
all is complicated, nothing is perfect,but makes me smile.

I hate to think that anyone would read my posts and take me as a person who doesn;t like to smile!

Wish I had more of an outgoing personality at times.
I'm slacking at school and this is my last chance.
Plus it's only the first bit of the semester. I need to stop fucking around and do my stuff properly. I am an educational fuck up. I feel like I am intelligent but not a good studier. I can analyze but not memorize. It's a fault.

I was just looking at pictures of California, and man, I think its my place in life. I'm gonna look into it, seriously.