Tonight I finally cry out. For this can be hard to bare on my own. So far from home. Friends and family. There is despair in my heart tonight. I feel trapped and bitter for it. So much welling up inside of me. I don't know if I am strong enough to hold this hurt much longer. who am I? Watching days pass me by....
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debrajean:
word
velvetknuckles:
I always love your words.
sometimes I wish there really were better things for me here..... but it seems so hopeless sometimes. my boyfriend and I cannot fight and have it not be a disaster..... it always kills me when this happens. he made a racist remark and I didn't agree with i and got upset so he is now mad at me. it's how much life sucks. why am...
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jessie:
Actually, I don't shoot with Jesse anymore. I havn't been to St. Louis in a while. In my journal entry, I was saying that someone was asking for my services in photography.
Shameless Nightmare.
By Miranda Blankenship
The devil told me
it was sin that cast the spell.
over me.
Angels deceiving shadow my light.
light
ening
If I were in the arms of the enemy
I would kiss it's poison lips.
Like the rose that's lost it's thorns
I have been torn open
Undone
Like Frida Kahlo I have become...
Too conscious of the unconscious
world...
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By Miranda Blankenship
The devil told me
it was sin that cast the spell.
over me.
Angels deceiving shadow my light.
light
ening
If I were in the arms of the enemy
I would kiss it's poison lips.
Like the rose that's lost it's thorns
I have been torn open
Undone
Like Frida Kahlo I have become...
Too conscious of the unconscious
world...
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I wonder in the smallest voice.. who cares.. and who survives to show it? If they do, it's never told and I cannot wait my whole life for the magic to appear. sometimes the light does just die.
M.
M.
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bowiee:
your too lovely for any more words..except
you are a treat to my eyes and your beauty shows that there is loveliness in this world.. thank you for restoring my hope
you are a treat to my eyes and your beauty shows that there is loveliness in this world.. thank you for restoring my hope
order_66:
hey so ya know you don't have ta try hun you are.....
sumtimes i wonder if it's all a misery that i let in my heart and what would i be without it. would i simply be void? crimeless criminal. passionless passion. i can die to hear your words, to see your face.. and i can think you'll save me somehow, but i know it can never happen, i know you are never there. intentions soully good,...
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vwwitch:
first off i want to say im jelous of your birthday ...i missed halloween by a week .... second i want to say your beautiful ... love the pics of u .... if u ever wanna model sometime im always looking for people to photograph
noone_3383:
very sexy pix
I'm getting fat.. and maybe I could get used to this.. my clothes aren't fitting me very well, or they are fitting me too well.. and i've been drinking so much every night and being alone for hours.. smoking cigarettes too, which is something I quit four years ago, but somehow with the move out here i've started up again. I keep having a strange...
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elvis:
howdy...ive found that the best thing to do in winchester is get tattooed at state of the art on pall mall st...those guys are bad ass...me and tiff are actually goin in today for some ink here in a few hours...dont srink so much
dc
dc
velvetknuckles:
Don't get too down, luv. It will pass...keep writing it's awesome. And I am getting that tattooed on me...sooon. I'll take pix and show ya when complete....THNX for the words.... 
[Edited on May 16, 2005 10:09PM]
[Edited on May 16, 2005 10:09PM]
AMBIGUITE
By Miranda Blankenship
Depressed. Not deeply. Just somewhat. Holding myself. It's the loneliness, come to taKe me home. Evening struck me like the table turning round. I'm not freaking out anymore, so used to falling down. fermented. fruit flies flailing. summer sun kissed babies. waking up with all my clothes on. sweating from some insecure nightmare. Where has my passion for death gone? No...
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By Miranda Blankenship
Depressed. Not deeply. Just somewhat. Holding myself. It's the loneliness, come to taKe me home. Evening struck me like the table turning round. I'm not freaking out anymore, so used to falling down. fermented. fruit flies flailing. summer sun kissed babies. waking up with all my clothes on. sweating from some insecure nightmare. Where has my passion for death gone? No...
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velvetknuckles:
the dead and the dying are the only friends I have.
...and that will be inked on me too. Why are u so alone? What isn't occurring that should be?
...and that will be inked on me too. Why are u so alone? What isn't occurring that should be?
elvis:
heya...this is dave...winchester is pretty fuckin cool...everyone is laid back and chill....everyone we have met has been really nice...its such a drastic change from the herndon reston area
keep in touch
dc
keep in touch
dc
You wake up in the niddle of the night.,.. from a dream you won't remember..flashing on like a cops light/ the whitelady loves you more. It can feel so good to know that at least SOMEONE wants to see lovely pics of me... well, I have LONG as hell legs, a short torso, BIG boobs (36D), a tummy that sticks out, some hair on my...
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xip:
I'm coming back to VA when my classes are over, in either late July or early August.. SO we should totally hang out while i'm there!
I'm excited FOR you... I wanted to get onto ishotmyself but I thought it looked really hard... they were all so artistic... I felt intimidated by it
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I'm excited FOR you... I wanted to get onto ishotmyself but I thought it looked really hard... they were all so artistic... I felt intimidated by it
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velvetknuckles:
...but I'm a man and I like you.
I saw your pix and you are sooooooooo sexy.
...but I'm a man and I like you.
I saw your pix and you are sooooooooo sexy.
Hey Everybodeee... If ya wanna check me out go to thatbirdsnest.com tomorrow and check out my pics.... my name is Oleander!! Tell me what ya think.
Gurl With No Name....
Gurl With No Name....
velvetknuckles:
I'm there. HI!
The dead.. I can't see beyond them. I'm fading into death again. Voodoo again. Voodoo again. Eating hearts and drinking blood. Veins. Lives. Nails in skin, constant shifting pain. It was meant to be this way. Free the rival before its too late. I'm drowning in this hurricane. Musty haunted rooms. White antique angels. It's a crime. Always fading into nothingness, without settling for bliss....
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Perched.
By Miranda Blankenship
Some days I sit here, unearthly as hell...
working on getting over it.
The way my cards were dealt.
Not like I have so much to bitch about,
just everything in the world.
Can't it stand to wait another day?
You're pulling me in, pulling me on, pulling me down.
In front of the train tracks, going northbound.
I'm caught in...
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By Miranda Blankenship
Some days I sit here, unearthly as hell...
working on getting over it.
The way my cards were dealt.
Not like I have so much to bitch about,
just everything in the world.
Can't it stand to wait another day?
You're pulling me in, pulling me on, pulling me down.
In front of the train tracks, going northbound.
I'm caught in...
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xip:
Sorry, I've never worked with a photog in VA, only in FL... Winchester is about 45 minutes from my hometown actually 
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xip:
It's awesome that you found a photog, particularly one so adept! I just found myself a new one in town that I have a meeting with on Monday, so I'm excited. Can't wait to see you go pink! 
Do you have a set concept yet, or just gonna wear something cute?
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Do you have a set concept yet, or just gonna wear something cute?
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ME: a movie starring Demi Moore/Cher
And so this is it
and so, i never thoght it would be like this.
I can hardly see the saddness in the dark september sickness of your heart
you thougt it was make beleive
and maybe it was for you
but i beleived
this is the time
i dreampt that i was fucking fearing.
running from an angel...
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And so this is it
and so, i never thoght it would be like this.
I can hardly see the saddness in the dark september sickness of your heart
you thougt it was make beleive
and maybe it was for you
but i beleived
this is the time
i dreampt that i was fucking fearing.
running from an angel...
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xip:
Ello darling! My newest set was just queued today, so it'll probably be up this month? I dunno, they don't do it on a first-come-first-served basis, I think they do it according to demand for certain models... so here's hoping *crosses fingers* thank you for the kind things you said
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debrajean:
let me guess.... you wanted to be an sg but were rejected.
don't take it out on me.
i'm not thin as a personal insult to you, it just happened to be the way I was made. i'm not any less of a "real woman" because i'm a 32 d and not a 38 a.
my dendrites and axons work just as hard as a fat fatzos do.
i don't feel as though you are demeaning me by having a fat ass, why do you feel so attacked by my body.
get over it.
don't take it out on me.
i'm not thin as a personal insult to you, it just happened to be the way I was made. i'm not any less of a "real woman" because i'm a 32 d and not a 38 a.
my dendrites and axons work just as hard as a fat fatzos do.
i don't feel as though you are demeaning me by having a fat ass, why do you feel so attacked by my body.
get over it.