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I'd like to thank the thousands of you that wrote....worried to death about my absence. I was off defending the american way...either that or my computer wasn't working for awhile and I was too lazy to get it straight...I'm so easily confused in my old age.

Since it has been awhile I'd figure I'd start off with an old classic....complaints about my love life. An oldy but goody, what can I say. So me and chef-boy-are-you-still-complaining-about-my-being-fairly-quiet finally broke up. It was fairly uneventful...I got the impression that she thought I'd protest a bit but the conversation about breaking up was started by me and it was completely mutual. It just stopped being interesting. WIth littler interest in dating for awhile.....I somehow developed a big crush on a certain someone. It turned out that I kept running into this woman at SF shows (including my own) and that we had a mutual acquaintance. Turns out she's an artist from Iceland so I was talking to her about doing art for my band. Being around her feels like being revived from the dead. She's just a lot of fun to be around. She's very smart, super silly and sarcastic (I'm a big fan of that), light hearted, likes similar music, very talented with her art, free-spirited and just amazingly beautiful. She maybe has the most kissable cheeks of all time and just heart warming eyes.

I'll keep the massive self-doubt and needless over-analyzing to a minimum for now. It should go without saying that I'm not feeling like I have much of a chance here. It seems like guys are constantly hitting on her (though I've never seen her even look vaguely interested) but she strikes me as someone that would be quite forward and have no problems expressing interest in me if she had any. Dating and such is still one area of my life that I don't have any confidence in and it's probably the one area that really requires it to get what you want. Many women find confidence sexy.....unfortunately, politely, shy and respectful isn't the most endearing quality. Oh well...I have to be who I am......who knows maybe things will work out.