yet another case of the blues. Why do I have such a hard time finding women I'm interested in? I tried a bit of the online thing (craig's list) not hoping for too much. I met a few girls that (to be polite) just didn't do it for me. I finally meet a really great and interesting girl and somehow I've pissed her off...the details don't much matter and it hurts to think about them. I feel like a miserable mess.
I'm not some asshole frat boy hitting on anything that moves but outside of that I don't even know how to meet interesting women. I've talked to some cool people on here but none within a million miles of where I am and if they did the proximity would probably cause them to be a bit more selective with their kind words.
It's not that I can't function alone but I'm a love junkie. I miss being in love. I miss being in a crush so bad your face hurts from smiling too much. The decent guys I know just seem to have women come to them...maybe I'm too oblivious when that happens to me or maybe it just doesn't happen. I'm just venting here...I know none of you can solve my problems for me but it helps to get it out from time to time and since only a rare few ever see this it's about as close to a personal journal as I have.
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I have the summer off from work and being alone this summer is going to be really hard on me....maybe I'm just going to have to start taking a lot more chances and just fling myself and seemingly interesting women. The next time I see a cool woman walking down the street I'll through myself on the ground at her feet
oye vey VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
I am utterly losing out. Funnily enough though, next year I may have an intense focus in Portland. Perhaps I'll have to mosey on down to Cali.