obee_one

i hated myself last night. i was tired and snapped at my gf. a few more minutes and i might have ended it right there. instead i hung up, and took a nap. she was crying, but did not tell me, but i heard it in her voice.

not to be an alarmist, but how do you know if it going to last or going to fizzle? we have a lot of good times, but our bad times are getting worse. i wish it weren't so cold, so i could cut the grass and think about all of this.