another long night. by total accident my roommate left on the table my ex's livejournal username, and the website. i knew she had one but never really cared to look for it. it would have been easy to find. beside the point.
well, i log on and begin to read. confirming all of my thoughts, and then also i discovered that she was totally wrong in her thinking. 1) yes, her feelings were/are a lot stronger than mine. 2) she thought my feelings were just as strong as her's. 3) as suspected, she would have never left on her own, she would have endured the miserable times for the few moments of happiness. then she ponders the question of 'when love enters a relatioinship', i really like her, but i don't love her as a sig. fig. she has a whole timeline that we should have been following.
so, when does love enter a relationship? after 3 months, 6 months, a year? for me, it is just a single moment when i know. apon gazing at the girl, i have a moment of total clearity and i know right then.
now a delema, she is coming over for my roommates birthday today. i hope she does not assume that with a little playing she can convince me i was wrong to break up. i will be a dick to her, but nicely.
girls need to be more like men. hide your feelings, go on like nothing is bothering you, don't call for a few weeks. gawk at other people, FART, crack stupid gross jokes. then we could all be friends, and doing things with friends wouldn't involve a dramatic episode. just a "let's go golfing" or "let's go play mario bros." or "let's go get our jollies off". because friends don't cuddle and analize the double boogie on 12, or what went wrong on level 13, or the great tee shot that lead to birdie on 15.
ugh.... i am just going to write off girls and stick to porn. it is cheaper, and less demanding.
well, i log on and begin to read. confirming all of my thoughts, and then also i discovered that she was totally wrong in her thinking. 1) yes, her feelings were/are a lot stronger than mine. 2) she thought my feelings were just as strong as her's. 3) as suspected, she would have never left on her own, she would have endured the miserable times for the few moments of happiness. then she ponders the question of 'when love enters a relatioinship', i really like her, but i don't love her as a sig. fig. she has a whole timeline that we should have been following.
so, when does love enter a relationship? after 3 months, 6 months, a year? for me, it is just a single moment when i know. apon gazing at the girl, i have a moment of total clearity and i know right then.
now a delema, she is coming over for my roommates birthday today. i hope she does not assume that with a little playing she can convince me i was wrong to break up. i will be a dick to her, but nicely.
girls need to be more like men. hide your feelings, go on like nothing is bothering you, don't call for a few weeks. gawk at other people, FART, crack stupid gross jokes. then we could all be friends, and doing things with friends wouldn't involve a dramatic episode. just a "let's go golfing" or "let's go play mario bros." or "let's go get our jollies off". because friends don't cuddle and analize the double boogie on 12, or what went wrong on level 13, or the great tee shot that lead to birdie on 15.
ugh.... i am just going to write off girls and stick to porn. it is cheaper, and less demanding.
And if girls were just like guys, then there would be no point in me making out with gorgeous gay boys at 80's dance night.