God now what. I don't understand why life has to be so confusing. It's like I think I have everything figured out in life and then BANG something smacks me right in the face... but it' beautiful and it makes me crazy... puts me into this state of emergency... how wonderful to be. And so I close my eyes and freefall into this ecstasy Im feeling. Am I fucking crazy!? What am I thinking! Why do I let myself feel this way? Why do I let myself fall into these traps when I know damn well where they'll lead me!? I think I just love to drown in my misery. Maybe I don't know every other way... but I'd rather smell that rose and have its thorns leave me bleeding than never ever know what it's like to smell that rose. But my stomach hurts and my chest hurts and my head is swimming swimming swelling.... God help me save me drag me out of this mess. Or maybe just let me let myself drown in this gorgeous disaster Im in.
I fell down. You warned me but I fell down anyway.
I fell down. You warned me but I fell down anyway.
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded.