I can't stand people today.
I had a friend completely blow me off today. She had told me that her grandpa fell and was in the hospital and she couldn't hang out. So I said I hope he is okay and she replied with, "He is my only grandparent that is left so sorry but he has to come first." Well I would hope so, and I never implied that I was upset by it. So she texted me later and said that there was no way she was going to be able to hang out because she had to go back to the hospital. Two hours later she posted on facebook about going out to dinner with one of her friends and her daughter. That's weird because last I knew she was going to the hospital, so I texted her and she got all defensive. Seriously, just admit you were lying and you were in the wrong, but no let's create a 45 minute argument. I'm so sick and tired of being pushed to the side. I have sat through so many phone conversations at 3 in the morning about her wanting to kill herself. There are times when I have something bothering me that I can't talk to her about because she is in her depressive state at the time. I feel as though I bend over backwards for our friendship and she doesn't budge a bit to meet me in the middle. I'm no one's last resort and I'm tired of being put in that position. So I finally told her that I can't do it, I need my space and a break from her and that I'm completely unhappy with the friendship. Which of course blew up into a bigger argument. I don't believe I'm wrong, and even if I am I feel it's what's right for me right now. I just don't want to waste my time on a friendship that only I'm working at.
Then my boys' father came to pick them up and saw my septum piercing tucked up in my nose and made a comment about how it will attract the wrong people. I told him I was doing it for him so it shouldn't matter. And the wrong people really, because apparently anyone with piercings or tattoos of any sort are all terrible people. Then he proceeded to text me later in the night telling me he wishes I was the girl I use to be and that I don't know who I am and I'm just trying to fit in with everyone else. Seriously!? The girl he dated was fucking 15 years old, I don't know many people that are the same as they were when they were 15. And trying to fit in, if that was the case I wouldn't have gotten my septum pierced since who I went with was trying to talk me out of it. I got it because I like it and I don't care who else does. Also because I like to dye my hair or get it cut differently also means I'm trying to conform into some social media that everyone else is. No I get my hair cut differently because I get bored easily of the hair style I have and I dye my hair because I have grey roots sometimes, and quite frankly I like when my hair is a darker color even though not many of my family members or he does. If I wanted to fit in I would do as everyone tells me to do. I've gotten judged all through high school, and I didn't have as thick skin as I do now, and if I didn't let it break me then why would I now.
Ugh I just can't stand people. Oh just got a text from my friend asking why I deleted her on facebook...because I don't believe you need to know what I'm doing, and I don't care to know what you are doing. Plus it's facebook, does it truly matter that much?
I had a friend completely blow me off today. She had told me that her grandpa fell and was in the hospital and she couldn't hang out. So I said I hope he is okay and she replied with, "He is my only grandparent that is left so sorry but he has to come first." Well I would hope so, and I never implied that I was upset by it. So she texted me later and said that there was no way she was going to be able to hang out because she had to go back to the hospital. Two hours later she posted on facebook about going out to dinner with one of her friends and her daughter. That's weird because last I knew she was going to the hospital, so I texted her and she got all defensive. Seriously, just admit you were lying and you were in the wrong, but no let's create a 45 minute argument. I'm so sick and tired of being pushed to the side. I have sat through so many phone conversations at 3 in the morning about her wanting to kill herself. There are times when I have something bothering me that I can't talk to her about because she is in her depressive state at the time. I feel as though I bend over backwards for our friendship and she doesn't budge a bit to meet me in the middle. I'm no one's last resort and I'm tired of being put in that position. So I finally told her that I can't do it, I need my space and a break from her and that I'm completely unhappy with the friendship. Which of course blew up into a bigger argument. I don't believe I'm wrong, and even if I am I feel it's what's right for me right now. I just don't want to waste my time on a friendship that only I'm working at.
Then my boys' father came to pick them up and saw my septum piercing tucked up in my nose and made a comment about how it will attract the wrong people. I told him I was doing it for him so it shouldn't matter. And the wrong people really, because apparently anyone with piercings or tattoos of any sort are all terrible people. Then he proceeded to text me later in the night telling me he wishes I was the girl I use to be and that I don't know who I am and I'm just trying to fit in with everyone else. Seriously!? The girl he dated was fucking 15 years old, I don't know many people that are the same as they were when they were 15. And trying to fit in, if that was the case I wouldn't have gotten my septum pierced since who I went with was trying to talk me out of it. I got it because I like it and I don't care who else does. Also because I like to dye my hair or get it cut differently also means I'm trying to conform into some social media that everyone else is. No I get my hair cut differently because I get bored easily of the hair style I have and I dye my hair because I have grey roots sometimes, and quite frankly I like when my hair is a darker color even though not many of my family members or he does. If I wanted to fit in I would do as everyone tells me to do. I've gotten judged all through high school, and I didn't have as thick skin as I do now, and if I didn't let it break me then why would I now.
Ugh I just can't stand people. Oh just got a text from my friend asking why I deleted her on facebook...because I don't believe you need to know what I'm doing, and I don't care to know what you are doing. Plus it's facebook, does it truly matter that much?
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f1ssure:
It's amazing how defensive people get when you call them out. As far as the boys' father is concerned, I'd tell him that if you want his opinion, you'll ask for it. Absent that request, he can keep it to himself.
aeon66:
I'm sorry to hear about your friend. I had a friend that wanted to do everything his way and never really wanted to do the things I wanted to do. So I just had to tell him to go away. Hanging out with him was more problem than it was worth. Also just so you know I like your piercing. I think piercings and tattoos look great on women. I also like to see women with different colors in their hair. So just tell your ex to piss off and mind his own business. 
You look absolutely cute the way you are 
You look absolutely cute the way you are