nonameninja

so now there are a few people that read my journal that I don't really think should (don't take this personaly anyone its not you) but I just have to worry about what I say now which really brakes the hole point of my journal...its kinda depressing because I wanted this to be somewhere that I could say what I really think and feel then it was about trying to make a friend or two sence I have less...and now I only use it to vent and talk negative about my life...so its not really all bad and there are some good things I should be saying but just havn't I guess....some how I managed to hurt someone because I never talked about them or was possative about them...they took the absence of anything as me not careing...over allt he point I'm getting at is the last few moths have been ruff with a lot of past demons coming back to hant me...seems like the curse of me about to open up to someone makes then run far away...its time for me to stop waiting for things to chaange for me and just make them change....I'm not sure what it is I'm going to do but there are something I need to make right and I am passed due for some grabe my life back by the ball shit....I have a lot of demons I fear no one will understand but damn it if I have to fight them my self I'd rather do that then cry like a bitch and let everything get out of control....."focker out" *passes out and falls start back*