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escapegoat:
i just realized how far out we really are
hollywoodrocks:
man.. always something cool over at Bella's Journal.. 
Things aren't as bad as I sometimes worry they could be.
I'm a positive sort by nature. I was born the life of the party. Just dropped those seeds and flowers along the way.
Sometimes I just forget about my inherent value, and look at the "seeming" rather than the being.
So, ehrm, I guess I'd rather have said that, here, today.
Just did.
I'm a positive sort by nature. I was born the life of the party. Just dropped those seeds and flowers along the way.
Sometimes I just forget about my inherent value, and look at the "seeming" rather than the being.
So, ehrm, I guess I'd rather have said that, here, today.
Just did.
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zenhell:
a round of satori for everyone
dharma_bum:
Thank you. Much appreciated.
Never forget your inherent value...
Cheers
Never forget your inherent value...
Cheers
(sorry origami...i got too deep for this one. and this life philosophy i'm working on changing--so i feel this entry was a bit too dark!)
sorry, kid!
-Be
sorry, kid!
-Be
ninji:
Oh! I also initially had meant to share this anectdote from today. I saw this luscious girl hitch-hiking today (I don't pick up hitch'ers, that is one un-hippie-like thing about me). She looked Native-American/Latin. Long brown hair, form-fitting jeans, lolita-esque sunglasses on, she looked about my age, lovely.
I drove by thinking, "tempting. Yum." I was waiting for my right of way, and still sort of enjoying the yumminess of her, quite attractive by superficial standards.
Seemed no one was feelin' a vibe to pick her up (despite her obvious hotness) so the tides shifted very quickly. She bent down and picked up this liter bottle of some sort of soda (unless there was J.D. in it! LOL) and started yelling at the drivers! I don't know what it said but her body language (suddenly less sexy more truck-driver-esque) was saying, "gimme a ride for Christ's sakes!" almost demanding it. She jumped in front of a car or two (dim-bulb mentality, too. Endangering her lives and theirs!). So it was a lesson for me, too. Sometimes I think someone who's a package outside is automatically swell inside too. I slip and think that, truly. But that was a reminder. Things ain't always as they seem.
(whistful sigh)
The image, pre-bitching though, was just beautiful and filmic. So, too, was the other, in a relativistic kinda way.
-Be
I drove by thinking, "tempting. Yum." I was waiting for my right of way, and still sort of enjoying the yumminess of her, quite attractive by superficial standards.
Seemed no one was feelin' a vibe to pick her up (despite her obvious hotness) so the tides shifted very quickly. She bent down and picked up this liter bottle of some sort of soda (unless there was J.D. in it! LOL) and started yelling at the drivers! I don't know what it said but her body language (suddenly less sexy more truck-driver-esque) was saying, "gimme a ride for Christ's sakes!" almost demanding it. She jumped in front of a car or two (dim-bulb mentality, too. Endangering her lives and theirs!). So it was a lesson for me, too. Sometimes I think someone who's a package outside is automatically swell inside too. I slip and think that, truly. But that was a reminder. Things ain't always as they seem.
(whistful sigh)
The image, pre-bitching though, was just beautiful and filmic. So, too, was the other, in a relativistic kinda way.
-Be
hollywoodrocks:
very honest and up front post bella... I wish I could put it all out there like that.. or even be able to word everything correctly.... I will have to soak this in a little more.
have you used sgchat yet?
have you used sgchat yet?
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alisa:
thank you, cutie
ooh and that sounds heavenly......
xxx
alisa
ooh and that sounds heavenly......
xxx
alisa
xxanastasiaxx:
your entries in my journal always make my day..
especially when I am sitting here in my bathrobe feeling and looking like holy hell..haha..it's not pretty girl..I assure you.
Yummy sweet kisses to you
especially when I am sitting here in my bathrobe feeling and looking like holy hell..haha..it's not pretty girl..I assure you.
Yummy sweet kisses to you
If I do not claim responsibility for my emotions, then I can easily fool myself into believing you're playing with them.
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dharma_bum:
Thanks. Have you ever read the Razor's Edge by W. Somerset Maugham? That's what directed me to read the Upanishads.
Like your entry. Your own thoughts?
Like your entry. Your own thoughts?
sakita:
fun! and true!
Gone Spiralling Again
Gone spiralling again
up toward the heavens
chanting up heaven's sky
knowing that the promised land is here
in my head and my heart
in my hands in fingers
innocence's honeydrip,
these are my eternal rivers that flow
I am Zion.
I am the promised land.
I am cherished.
I am the treasure.
I am the savior who comes in right on...
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Gone spiralling again
up toward the heavens
chanting up heaven's sky
knowing that the promised land is here
in my head and my heart
in my hands in fingers
innocence's honeydrip,
these are my eternal rivers that flow
I am Zion.
I am the promised land.
I am cherished.
I am the treasure.
I am the savior who comes in right on...
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hollywoodrocks:
good evening bella
nice journal entry .. once again
nice journal entry .. once again
suoda:
I will forever adore your writing and when I get some time, I would still love to throw down some music for you to sing to. Damn... the way your choruses of writing blend into something and metamorph into something else just as brilliant is astounding. Sorry I have been so absent, but I am leaving in 4 days! YIPES! Much love dear.
"dreams can be reality
animate your fantasy and come with me
you can find your mind at peace
illusion is a quick release to get away
only you can be the one to redesign the changes in your mind
only you can do what you believe in and believe in what you do
do what you believe in, believe in what you do
and the...
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animate your fantasy and come with me
you can find your mind at peace
illusion is a quick release to get away
only you can be the one to redesign the changes in your mind
only you can do what you believe in and believe in what you do
do what you believe in, believe in what you do
and the...
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alisa:
hey, you. i was checking my friends of button for the first time just to see if it said anything different and guess what i found??? YOU you lovely thing you
i am so positive that i would have remembered meeting you on here so i'm curious as to how you found me. i'm a noobie so it still surprises me that people are actually noticing me. but oh well, i'm really glad you did.... you have been added. i can't wait to read more of your journal and some of the past ones, too. those lyrics are beautiful.
much love to my newly found friend
xxx
alisa
edited to say:memory recovery??? i talk about that with my guy constantly. when i was a teenager i was a heavy heavy drinker and i wish all the time that there was someway that i could be hypnotized to reclaim all the lost memories. we were best friends back then and he remembers us doing way many more things that we did and shared than i do and i would love to get it all back. i would even accept the risk that i would also get all those evil and horrific memories back that i've suppressed since i was about 12. but i think it would be worth it even if it was painful at 1st just to be able to remember. ya know?
[Edited on May 08, 2003]
i am so positive that i would have remembered meeting you on here so i'm curious as to how you found me. i'm a noobie so it still surprises me that people are actually noticing me. but oh well, i'm really glad you did.... you have been added. i can't wait to read more of your journal and some of the past ones, too. those lyrics are beautiful.
much love to my newly found friend
xxx
alisa
edited to say:memory recovery??? i talk about that with my guy constantly. when i was a teenager i was a heavy heavy drinker and i wish all the time that there was someway that i could be hypnotized to reclaim all the lost memories. we were best friends back then and he remembers us doing way many more things that we did and shared than i do and i would love to get it all back. i would even accept the risk that i would also get all those evil and horrific memories back that i've suppressed since i was about 12. but i think it would be worth it even if it was painful at 1st just to be able to remember. ya know?
[Edited on May 08, 2003]
eris23:
my thighs are luscious cause they go all-the-way-up
i am glad to be back though it is singularly surreal to be living at the man's parents' house. we must practice ninja-like invisibility, as it freaks them out to see our dirty dishes etc. luckily they have a massive basement which we shall convert into our foxhole of ultra-quiet love.
i am glad to be back though it is singularly surreal to be living at the man's parents' house. we must practice ninja-like invisibility, as it freaks them out to see our dirty dishes etc. luckily they have a massive basement which we shall convert into our foxhole of ultra-quiet love.
treasured anectodes from the evening, most of which was comprised of the illustrious dj kemal's set:
these anectodes all involve 3 tall brothers:
1) this one way-thin tall brother, w/a grey sweater and jeans on, straight \-up stared at kemal's turntable for about 45 minutes of his set. closer to the 2nd hour, he began to dance his ASS off, just drinking in the beats....
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these anectodes all involve 3 tall brothers:
1) this one way-thin tall brother, w/a grey sweater and jeans on, straight \-up stared at kemal's turntable for about 45 minutes of his set. closer to the 2nd hour, he began to dance his ASS off, just drinking in the beats....
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zenhell:
your journal is one of the best
thanks
thanks
slebnak:
I know almost nothing about the House scene and your journal just reminded me of that.
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suoda:
hmm... i have often found the shortest entries get the best responses, haha. perhaps it is better to write next to nothing. how ya doin?
ebin:
You gotta see Brandy........
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
dammit--i've gone and done it. i'm in stasis. froze, kinda. it's temporary, i know. been waiting for a muse. a next wave of inspiration. not hitting.
i've been dilligent about following up leads for making music, and still have 3 gigs lined up this weekend, and a 4th on the way.
just a little bit confused. it's crazy, i know, but i don't feel cute...
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i've been dilligent about following up leads for making music, and still have 3 gigs lined up this weekend, and a 4th on the way.
just a little bit confused. it's crazy, i know, but i don't feel cute...
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kemal:
YO !
you gotta get me your contact information asap. we got this new jam were working on. kind of a follow up for the record that just got signed with E-man so we were feeling of trying to break a new voice in the house music genre. Give me a number where i can call you @ and a good time to reach you. Wed like to get you down here if possible and give it a shot and see if it might work if youre up to that? email me
kemal@theworldsmostbeautiful.com
you gotta get me your contact information asap. we got this new jam were working on. kind of a follow up for the record that just got signed with E-man so we were feeling of trying to break a new voice in the house music genre. Give me a number where i can call you @ and a good time to reach you. Wed like to get you down here if possible and give it a shot and see if it might work if youre up to that? email me
kemal@theworldsmostbeautiful.com
clovesbud:
That profile pic is sooo fucking sexy. I was reading your journal, like a good boy, and then I looked over at your pic and suddenly didn't give a shit what you had to say.
Fucking men. It's sad. It really is....
Cutie!
Fucking men. It's sad. It really is....
Cutie!
coming:
(a matter of degrees)
she's coming soon to visit me
i can't wait until she
comes close to the point of the climb-max
again
to be honest it took us both
the longest time
(always close and then not quite)
sometimes she reminds me of morticia adams
sometimes, bjork
like a model, like actresses, always different angles
making different faces
(like cut glass.)
when...
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(a matter of degrees)
she's coming soon to visit me
i can't wait until she
comes close to the point of the climb-max
again
to be honest it took us both
the longest time
(always close and then not quite)
sometimes she reminds me of morticia adams
sometimes, bjork
like a model, like actresses, always different angles
making different faces
(like cut glass.)
when...
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glorybox111:
I'm in awe right now that is probablly the best thing i've read of yours. Hell it's now my new favorite poem.
ebin:
You are mighty.......
Had a recent job change. There was a little vaccuum I must say. But lately, well, I've been asked to do 4 paying music gigs in the last coupla weeks since I've been 'transitioning.'
So, you wanna tell me we don't make our own miracles? Feh!
I did this last-minute beach gig yesterday. It was fantasy personified (well, closer to it.). One of my boycrushes...
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So, you wanna tell me we don't make our own miracles? Feh!
I did this last-minute beach gig yesterday. It was fantasy personified (well, closer to it.). One of my boycrushes...
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suoda:
Wow!! I feel completely honored that you would quote me!
I am so happy for you! You definitely deserve such fine treatment. It makes me so happy to see a musician able to make some money without selling themselves. I am quite proud of you and I am still anxious to make music with you at some point.
Bella... what an appropriate name choice. Keep making those miracles happen!
I am so happy for you! You definitely deserve such fine treatment. It makes me so happy to see a musician able to make some money without selling themselves. I am quite proud of you and I am still anxious to make music with you at some point.
Bella... what an appropriate name choice. Keep making those miracles happen!
ebin:
Gigs....good........margaritas...very good.
Gigs and a date with Margarita? Priceless...
Gigs and a date with Margarita? Priceless...