can't explain how or why but i know that i am blessed to know you
feel like i am jumping in here from the future and i'm trying to
piece this life together alongside you--what made this one laugh and that other one smile
how i went ahead and fashioned a life i love alongside my friends, those familiar, those from the past, those lost...
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feel like i am jumping in here from the future and i'm trying to
piece this life together alongside you--what made this one laugh and that other one smile
how i went ahead and fashioned a life i love alongside my friends, those familiar, those from the past, those lost...
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nisi:
i hope to see you tonight! i go to king king. have a wonderful weekend love.
nisi
nisi
oninotaki:
why thank you thats so nice and pretty
FIND MY/SELF COMFORTING
- (story by Bella)
More often than not, Ill find myself comforting Julia. Sometimes when shes asleep, sometimes on waking. Shell get That Look and Ill know she needs my reassurance. Julias 31, see. And Im her 25-year-old boyfriend.
Yeah.
Put the white light around you, Ill whisper to her in the middle of the night. Her body shaking, shell wake up...
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- (story by Bella)
More often than not, Ill find myself comforting Julia. Sometimes when shes asleep, sometimes on waking. Shell get That Look and Ill know she needs my reassurance. Julias 31, see. And Im her 25-year-old boyfriend.
Yeah.
Put the white light around you, Ill whisper to her in the middle of the night. Her body shaking, shell wake up...
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glorybox111:
I love you. Please tell me where to get your book if you ever get one published. I'll be your first groupie. I have such an extreme respect for your writing.
astrid:
I like your website, Miss Bella. Very cool.
I'd exchange writing with you except for one thing - mine sucks. I don't show it to people. I'm too shy for that. Your writing, however, is wonderful.
I'd exchange writing with you except for one thing - mine sucks. I don't show it to people. I'm too shy for that. Your writing, however, is wonderful.
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toxicvixen:
bella, bella.
a name that truely represents the person.
bella, bella.
a name that truely represents the person.
thee_blacklisted:
same to you!
FOR EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU
part of me yes
part of me no
you're part of me now
that i've let you go
be
05
30
03
part of me yes
part of me no
you're part of me now
that i've let you go
be
05
30
03
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glorybox111:
wow you are quite the popular girl. And a lovely poet. Are you thinking of publishing a book or have you already I would totally buy it.
"Be patient with all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions, now. Perhaps you will then...
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fallen1carus:
i saw in shiva's journal that you had some trouble with SG and work... what happened?
fil:
I often wonder about how I will better help my children, when I have children, learn the things that I've learned in life -- and I learn that I can only give them the tools to learn, nothing more.
"You can give a man a fish and feed him for a day, or you can teach a man to fish and feed him for a lifetime."
"You can give a man a fish and feed him for a day, or you can teach a man to fish and feed him for a lifetime."
know you
i know you
you're hiding with me too
waiting for the planes to pass by
afraid of firestarters
and shit talkers
i know you, too
you're so used to avoiding the ouch that you
never see the sunlight. the beach. the beauty of her,
skirt shimmering underneath your soft, quivering hands
you're like me.
we're hiding,
eyes closed, underwater,
at opposite ends of...
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i know you
you're hiding with me too
waiting for the planes to pass by
afraid of firestarters
and shit talkers
i know you, too
you're so used to avoiding the ouch that you
never see the sunlight. the beach. the beauty of her,
skirt shimmering underneath your soft, quivering hands
you're like me.
we're hiding,
eyes closed, underwater,
at opposite ends of...
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sidd:
that was awesome! i don't know if i ever got your email (it must have been deleted by my spam filters). if you're still interested, my newist song can be found at:
http://www.yak.net/xenocide/mp3s/scratch/persephone.mp3
enjoy!
-sidd
http://www.yak.net/xenocide/mp3s/scratch/persephone.mp3
enjoy!
-sidd
leiru13:
hey girlie, thanks for wishing me well, I hope I am better soon. I just need to make myself a home here to fill with my belongings, not in the chaos of this house, though I love my foster family. I have thought about going to camp, but it is not warm enough to go nightswimming yet. Soon though, and the boy I love will visit, and all will be well with my world again.
DREAMS OVERCAST
peeking through my blinds i
realize it's still overcast
weather report had said "sunny,"
not "partly cloudy" or
anything like it
but that's just the thing:
forecast ain't fact
i thought of you and the way you
yanked the screen from my window
pulled rugs out from underneath me
it's not your fault, though, i
wanted you to
at 12 midnight it became...
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peeking through my blinds i
realize it's still overcast
weather report had said "sunny,"
not "partly cloudy" or
anything like it
but that's just the thing:
forecast ain't fact
i thought of you and the way you
yanked the screen from my window
pulled rugs out from underneath me
it's not your fault, though, i
wanted you to
at 12 midnight it became...
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escapegoat:
at one point in this lifetime i had dreams
joyrider:
it's tough to let go of the game. we've been playing it for so long that even when you see it for what it is it's hard to just walk away.
ADAPTATION
"A peacock had wandered in from the marketplace which was next to the nearly empty courtyard....Halprin threw a wafer onto the flagstones. The bird picked it to bits there on the flagstones and ate the pieces without once looking up at them.
"You remind me of that peacock," he said.
- Raymond Carver, from "The Augustine Notebooks"
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Don't fuss.
Please keep pushing forward....
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"A peacock had wandered in from the marketplace which was next to the nearly empty courtyard....Halprin threw a wafer onto the flagstones. The bird picked it to bits there on the flagstones and ate the pieces without once looking up at them.
"You remind me of that peacock," he said.
- Raymond Carver, from "The Augustine Notebooks"
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Don't fuss.
Please keep pushing forward....
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nisi:
fantastique! let's collaborate mon amie. you write the prose, and i will listen.
nisi
nisi
a35mmlife:
home. home. home.
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thee_blacklisted:
hey -- how are you? sorry i've been outta touch...
[Edited on May 20, 2003]
[Edited on May 20, 2003]
winter_____:
That site is fabulous, and so are you!
(Sunflowerberries! I love it!)
(Sunflowerberries! I love it!)
storms came
storms
came
and
i
did
what
needed
to
be
done
i'm
no
angel
but
i
worked
my
angle
into
one
that
fit
worked
miracles
and
tried
to
love
things
into
life.
i'm
spent,
beloved.
i
need
you
to
plant
seeds
with
me.
take
time
and
remind
me
all
about
eclipses--
when
and
how
seasons
change.
and
why.
i
need
to
feel
the
warmth...
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storms
came
and
i
did
what
needed
to
be
done
i'm
no
angel
but
i
worked
my
angle
into
one
that
fit
worked
miracles
and
tried
to
love
things
into
life.
i'm
spent,
beloved.
i
need
you
to
plant
seeds
with
me.
take
time
and
remind
me
all
about
eclipses--
when
and
how
seasons
change.
and
why.
i
need
to
feel
the
warmth...
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zenhell:
i could be bounded in a nut-shell and count myself
a king of infinite space,were it not that i have bad dreams
singers keep on singin'
teachers keep on teachin'
world keep on turnin'
[Edited on May 20, 2003]
a king of infinite space,were it not that i have bad dreams
singers keep on singin'
teachers keep on teachin'
world keep on turnin'
[Edited on May 20, 2003]
infinite joy
admit it; you know you want it
come on; you've gotten this far--
come on.
dreams like when you slept, soft
in bed, before fitful sleep set in,
radio came on, old vinyl or
a scratched up CD,
that passionsong you played over again
and over
you would sacrifice your whole fucking life
for that one lost love
which you'd never
quite found...
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admit it; you know you want it
come on; you've gotten this far--
come on.
dreams like when you slept, soft
in bed, before fitful sleep set in,
radio came on, old vinyl or
a scratched up CD,
that passionsong you played over again
and over
you would sacrifice your whole fucking life
for that one lost love
which you'd never
quite found...
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alisa:
thank you so much for stopping by. you have such a good presence about you.
much love
alisa
much love
alisa
jessicka:
Lovely writing! I never could write poetry that didn't sound forced or stilted, but yours seems to flow naturally, unforced. A fresh and refreshing spring of untainted h2o.
Yes, it's nice to reconnect with old friends, and to find out that their memories of me are so different than the awful person I remember being.
Yes, it's nice to reconnect with old friends, and to find out that their memories of me are so different than the awful person I remember being.
"oh heart,
sit with someone who
knows the heart;
go under the tree which
has fresh blossoms."
-rumi
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leiru13:
cherry blossoms...
xxanastasiaxx:
My rumi quote for today: ( i so love rumi)
You breath without a body like a spark
you grieve, and I begin to feel lighter
you keep me away with your arm
but the keeping away is pulling me in.
You breath without a body like a spark
you grieve, and I begin to feel lighter
you keep me away with your arm
but the keeping away is pulling me in.