Chair Yoga and Tai Chi are in my near future.
Also apparently panic attacks have come for a visit. We aren't friends.
I'm not writing.
I'm not playing video games.
I am however sleeping. A lot.
Or... panicking.
Yup fun times around here. Monkey (hubby) has been great though. The other night I had a massive panic attack and felt as if the walls were closing in on me. I ran out of the house, then panicked because I was out of the house. He ran after me and held me close rocking me. Put a Hello Kitty doll in my arms and kissed my forehead. *snort* Treated me like a kid, but it worked.
Next day I got flowers and coffee in bed.
Don't get me wrong, we have our issues. Major ones actually. Marriage counseling on the 18th but that tells me we love each other enough to stay and get help. I have helped him, now it's his turn to help me.
He is making me leave the house today. I know it's for my own good but... fucks.
If panic attacks are all in my head, think I can bang my head hard enough to jiggle them loose?
I didn't think so....
Ps. Next blog I promise something happy.
Also apparently panic attacks have come for a visit. We aren't friends.
I'm not writing.
I'm not playing video games.
I am however sleeping. A lot.
Or... panicking.
Yup fun times around here. Monkey (hubby) has been great though. The other night I had a massive panic attack and felt as if the walls were closing in on me. I ran out of the house, then panicked because I was out of the house. He ran after me and held me close rocking me. Put a Hello Kitty doll in my arms and kissed my forehead. *snort* Treated me like a kid, but it worked.
Next day I got flowers and coffee in bed.
Don't get me wrong, we have our issues. Major ones actually. Marriage counseling on the 18th but that tells me we love each other enough to stay and get help. I have helped him, now it's his turn to help me.
He is making me leave the house today. I know it's for my own good but... fucks.
If panic attacks are all in my head, think I can bang my head hard enough to jiggle them loose?
I didn't think so....
Ps. Next blog I promise something happy.
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madviking:
Sorry to hear about the panic attacks but glad to hear you have someone that cares enough to do whatever needs to be done to take care of you. Hope the counseling goes well, just remember to be honest but kind and don't dwell on little things.
davy:
I will have to find some more new vids to post... mind you, it was YOU that introduced me to Android Lust, and that video is fab! 