mtspiral

I really don't keep up with this thing enough >.<

Life is life, it lets you think things are going to be great then it kicks you in the dick and spits on you when you go down I keep trying to find the answer to when this is going to get better, but I'm having such a hard time seeing it >.>

I'm going to the field for two weeks starting next weekend, which is a good thing I like having nothing to do but work. I can't handle home life sometimes, I don't know where I stand with the army right now, I'm either gonna be ok, getting kicked out, or being forced to pick a different job and start all over for my next three years <.<

I also can't tell whether I'd rather get kicked out or stay in, sometimes I just feel like I need to be free and wandering around til I die, I feel so trapped and alone out here...at the very least I could be allowed to go free and drink myself to death instead of having to put up with so much stupid shit when I already have the world on my shoulders

Le sigh, I'm not one to pretend I know what the word "quit" means so I guess I'll just keep on kicking ass and taking no one's name til they make up their damn minds on how they want to treat me. I refuse to let people down and not live up to everything that I can xD

One day I'll figure out what to do with myself and what the fuck I'm supposed to be doing with my life to find happiness again....