Monday May 24, 2004

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haha. boo. watching idiots do a crossword puzzle is so fucking rad.

mwah!xo

thanks for the invite suicidestaff!

is staticpants still here?

zombiequeenmtlqueentwwlysandwich! love
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bigpunkmike:
holy crap you're back...old skool
kingskottie:
well good gooly moogily!

i was dilaudid... then i was fidel castro...then i was mr fantastic...now i'm iceberg slim.

welcome back lady!


DIO yell!

Friday Apr 04, 2003

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ICE STORM! SNOW! SLEET! MIDNIGHT THUNDERSTORMS!

ahhh, spring in Southern Ontario...

I literally could not go into Toronto today because I know the commute would end up taking more of my day than the time I'd actually spend there. Yesterday, which wasn't nearly as shitty as today weather wise, it took me two and a half hours to get home. It usually takes 45 minutes....
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60ftqueenie:
shit man... who the fuck moves to finland? thats sum crazy shit... oh well I guess I want to move to iceland so... hahaha biggrin

naw gurl cheer up... I love you ! kiss and damn straight its my job to beat you up lol... I wanna come and live with you... though I just dont think I'd deal with the cold thing.... maybe in summer? we can have a summer romance tongue

do your best with the stuff with your brother... the thing that yo ualways have to remember... siblings or not.. your both still people and resolution is a two way street... if he's not willing or ready... then cest la vie... the only thing you can do is remain open to the idea for the day he comes knocking

*hugs*

your picture reminds me of my fav bjork song...

i miss you but I havent met you yet...
so special but it hasnt happened yet...
you are gorgeous but I havent met you yet
throatneedle:
Love that new profile pic!
You are so good with words Cyn
And so good with metal
Which is why you are
THE METALQUEEN!
*Slayer horse-sounding guitar solo*

'..and Jesus wept....'

Wednesday Apr 02, 2003

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Right now, I'm hating the war.

Do you know why?

Because it makes mailing a big box of cool stuff really really difficult... I know they're rooting through it, messing up my carefully arranged layers, ruining the order of discovery, leaving knick knacks all willy nilly all over the place. FUckers.
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kingskottie:
skinny puppy? heh! good stuffs.

sure...theyre no ACCEPT. nor a WARRIOR SOUL...but OK>
60ftqueenie:
grrrr thats fucked!!!!!!!!

love you though!

Tuesday Apr 01, 2003

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Today was a big day, and I was pleasantly surprised. Having spent most of last week with my head up my ass looking for a lost cell phone didn't exactly give me the momentum I need... Thanks again for all the support and insight, I'm ready to listen again, ready for perspective and clarity. Ready to begin letting go of my guilt for having said...
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tiamat:
mmmm. spaghetti. my favorite is spaghetti with parmesan, cheddar, mushrooms and veggie ground round.
'k now i am hungry. thatnks for the good dinner idea. kiss
tiamat:
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Monday Mar 31, 2003

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Every day that I keep going on my own has a price. I'm boycotting soon.

There's really no point to my search for answers. To begin with, I'm asking the wrong questions. I know this, but sometimes I just have to go into that hideous, twisted place and see what I can dig up. And well, sometimes I need to hurt myself. I don't plan...
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kinto:
The brain is a junkie, it only wants first-class emotions, when life feeds it average and insignificant crap about all the time. We were made to expect more, crave for more & die for that little bit more.

K
user8935778:
theres no shame. in any of it. ever.

Sunday Mar 30, 2003

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Six years
spent
and I ain't got shit to show for it
except a raging case of extreme cuntosis.

I'm sorry if I'm not sharing anything good today, I'm not particularly upset at anyone other than myself for being so fucking delusional... what made me think I was so fucking special... He didn't "get" me any more than I "got" him. I just wouldn't give...
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lil_billy_ben:
You seem cool to me, hope you feel better.
wisp:
Rage is good... Mine was 8 years and 3 years concurrent. Two betrayals and hurt and cowardice all around. But I don't want to peel off my skin its the only thing holding in the occasional rush of dispair. My guess is _healthy_ regrets are the mile markers of emotional accomplishments. *hugs*

Wednesday Mar 26, 2003

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Do you think your life would be easier if you fit into a category? I was taking a trip down memory lane yesterday, sparked by clovesbud's gothic musing... I've always been aware of the fact that I've never been so devoted to one scene that I could just allow myself to be swallowed up... walk the walk, talk the talk, wear the uniform, know the...
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lil_billy_ben:
new name, new pic.....what next?
itsalivemedia:
Having worked at a venue (nice new SG name change by the way) I know that bands hold back tix (managers, label, friends, etc) and when they know folks are not making it, the venue releases tix. USUALLY the best one's too as they are holding them for VIPs. So GO FOR IT with Godspeed! smile

Wow...we think alike about this. The thing is people move on. And if they don't, well, you don't want to be hanging with them. Not that it's not good to be true to yer school mind you. It is. But if I was doing the same things at 34 as I was at 14...come on! You grow older, life changes....you change. That is life. Doesn't mean you can't put on The Sisterhood every now and then.

Think of it this way. Look at any band, U2 to the Sex Pistols (ok maybe not The Ramones or the Didjits) and they change. They get better at playing, try more things and expend their horizons. You should too. Why wasn't the Sex Pistols reunion so good? Because they know how to PLAY now. Why is Dave Navaro such a tool? Look at him...he changed for the worse. See him in Janes (mach I) and now....it's night and day. Same with the Chili Peppers. Just hope you change less like Anthony Keidis!

Sunday Mar 23, 2003

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Today was a really long, hard but exhilarating day. (Is it just me, or do I seem to be having a lot of those days lately?)

I have been running on empty the last couple of days, just sort of skimming the fat to burn in my lamp... not a bright light, but technically I'm burning... squinting and straining to focus on my surroundings... breathing...
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user8935778:
i look at him sometimes and think "oh my god. what am i doing with you."

then he's kissing my neck and whispers in my hair how beautiful i am.. and i remember.

im just having fun.
roamingaround:
I only put down Glenfidditch because I wrote my profile during a hangover. Maybe I was trying to make myself puke.

My father is also a single malt snob, and I've actually liked some of the stuff he drinks, though I could never afford it myself. I save my pennies for records and books. I'm a nerd that way.

Saturday Feb 22, 2003

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I just poured my heart out in this fucker and then I got spat back and lost my entry. Man. I hate when that happens.

So you know how sometimes you wanna make out with somebody just to feel like you can escape your own boring headspace and make your heart beat faster for just a few minutes? Fuck. I know I don't want in...
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bigpunkmike:
yes, oil wrestling, now you're talking!!

women's oil wrestling came to town last week, so we took a friend for his birthday, and he decided to bring his gf...she got really offended and demanded we take her home. frown

I also hate when entries get lost, that used to happen to me a lot in livejournal
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