Often, I simply can't handle the company of others, besides a select few. I wouldn't consider myself antisocial, but rather selectively social. Often, I don't want to talk to anyone, and I hate knowing that there are people who just can't accept that. I freely admit to being much better at communicating through the written word, whether that comes in the form of physical letters, texts, e-mails. I would love to meet and make some new friends, but the thought of doing that in person terrifies the shit out of me. And then I have the complex of "everyone leaves me" to deal with, at times thinking 'what's the point in becoming friends...they're just going to move or move on to someone else eventually.'
And then there are those rare times where I am filled to the brim with confidence, don't give a fuck what others think, and live my life just as I want to. Please, give me more of these days.
I like having this place to just get shit out of my mind. And I like knowing others may read this - others who I don't deal with in person or on a daily basis.
And then there are those rare times where I am filled to the brim with confidence, don't give a fuck what others think, and live my life just as I want to. Please, give me more of these days.
I like having this place to just get shit out of my mind. And I like knowing others may read this - others who I don't deal with in person or on a daily basis.
Swings and rounds about of I cant stand being surrounded by people and the noise and the chaos - I need to be alone. I am alone - I am so lonely and no one cares. Meh
Yes! Start BSG. It's really addicting and amazing. I need to get back to it, myself.
Hope all is well!