mrkillerchef

another day has begun. im about to head to work now for another long day. i have a little more hope today than i did yesterday. i learned that somehow, some people read this crap i wirte. and it kinda makes me feel better

. good day SG, stay classy

so im horribly confused...

today my girlfriend... my ex... i dont know what to call her. but she came by to drop off a couple things. she brought a check for rent, the shower curtain she took, and a hairbrush.... oh and "blankie" it was her blanket that i kinda took over because it was hers and cute and made me comfortable.

so she dropped...
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lyvia:

This sounds like a horrid situation, I hope you work it out soon. Healing is hard enough with closure but it sounds like you don't have any, which sucks. Good luck x

Aug 23, 2013

mrkillerchef:

thank you Lyvia.

to be perfectly honest i didnt think anyone was reading these things. i thought it was a safe and secure way to express what i really feel, without anyone judging me. i cant tell family or they will hate her. i cant tell friends or they think i screwed up. its almost nice to know that a stranger can read my words and listen to my heart, and atleast understand me a little...

so thank you.... anyone reading this. for being my support and my friend

Aug 23, 2013

so another day has gone by. relatively normal day at work. had a decent sales day. sold a few big computers with everything attached to them. had a 2000$ sale. so that was good. got a ride home with the boss.

but i realized today, Ashley has no intention of coming back. no intention of bringing back the cat. she has no interest in trying...
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watching Heroes on netflix

realizing my relationship is pretty much over. i dont think shes coming back at all. she talks about not giving back my kitten. and about getting a job where she is now. things that prevent her from coming back. she says she will talk with me in person after she has a job. but that can be months. i dont know...
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so for the first time since moving here, i took a walk. let me clarify. ive gone out and walked places before. hell i often have to walk to work about 5 miles away. but for the first time, i took a walk without a purpose. i went out and walked just because i could. i walked into a part of town i didnt know...
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i know nobody is reading this. but it feels safe to pour my heart out and just get things off my chest.

another long day at work. i really feel like im being abused sometimes. im worked all day without a break. i bust ass and get reprimanded when everything isnt done even though im the only one working.

then i come home to an...
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as good a place as any to start

technically im not single. technically im still in a relationship. but it doesnt feel like it. my girlfriend has moved out and back across state lines to her former home. we had a stupid little fight and she thretened to leave and i did a stupid mistake. i tried to make her see how serious i was...
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