mrdelicious

I feel lonely.
I've never felt lonely before.
I've felt alone, hurt, empty, fucked-over...I've felt a lot of things, but I don't think I've ever felt lonely.
It's wierd. I'm not sad. I'm not depressed.
So someone isn't reacting the way I want her too. This is nothing new, happens all the time. Says she's got family problems.
I've been surrounded by friends all day, having a good time. Spoke with my brother, nieces, mother, grandmother, everything's great. Family loves me.
She cancels plans. Family problems. I call later. She can't talk. I go to bed early but can't sleep so I call someone else who I know cares about me. She offers to come over but I tell her I was just thinking of her have to work early. I really just wanted to hear someone's voice who care's about me. I wanted to be reminded I'm loved.
So now I'm sitting here trying to get some work that needs to get done done and I feel so very strange.