mr_peen

another wonderful night fallin asleep knowing that i didnt live today like it was my last day. i used to be able to live like there was no future, i didnt really think there was, if the future came, so what?
no the future is past and present. no change. still walking up wanting to crawl out of myself and into the person that she would want. to be the person who could mesmerize her, entertain her, make her happy, just to know what it is like to have her look at me once the way i look at her. to have her get jealous when i talk to the new person, to have her get said if i ignore her, it will never happen so there is no future.