mr_peen

i think i am a complete ass lately. alot of ppl here dislike me. so that makes it hard to like them. i wonder why some ppl like me? i am so grateful for my best friend. i wonder what she likes me for. i dont have low self esteem, i have the negative self esteem. i bought the movie my first mister for like 3 dollars, i love that movie. i would love to be a movie maker. to write and direct. i think that is my dream. i hate to say it, but martha got the shaft. it is odd that the prosecutors talk about going after ppl who do this type of crime, where are all the fuckers from enron? dont remember hearing about how they will be in jail, or how they will be a felon without the right to vote. pretty fucked up i think. i watched the funniest show in the history of reality tv, top model. that show made me laugh so hard. i cant wait to watch next week. since i only get 4 channels, two are news. one is sports and the other, well it plays everything else. i finally have the internet in my room. i am happy about that. i have paid my late truck bills. i am startin to feel somewhat settled in. i am growin tired of moving every few years. i love travel, but like someone said i am lookin for something permament. i can not wait to go back to the states. but i know i will not be home till 2006. as soon as i return stateside i will be sent to iraq or afghan. i look forward to deploying again though. i liked going to africa. i hated it while i was there, but i miss certain things there, that seemed to be stable. i long for the life i dream of. a life where i can sit and read. a life where i can relax again.