morningsting

sorry i didn't update the past 2 days. we had a scheduled power outage (lame lame lame!!!) for the past 2 days for like 8 hours at a time&when i FINALLY got the power back on i just played on my wii. i don't even know why they turned the power off ... they sent us this thing in the mail saying they were going to do a power outage for our neighborhood but they didn't tell us why. like wth you could at least inform us as to why you're turning the power off&pissing people off because they can't do anything. ugh whatever. hopefully we won't have another one of those for a very long time.

so yesterday i went to the psychiatrist. fun stuff NOT. i mean actually talking to them about my medicine&stuff doesn't bother me ... it's just the drive out there. it's on the other side of the island so it takes like an hour to get there. he wants me to start taking seroquel ... he said it will help with my anxiety (because i almost have panic attacks when i'm in a car or when i have to drive&i worry about everything like crazy)&he also said that it will help me with my nightmares. so i took one last night&tbh i really do feel a difference today. i did some research&it takes a very short time for you to start feeling changes so yeah it's not just me thinking that the medicine works lulz. i was really skeptical about taking it because a lot of the medications they prescribe aren't even for mental disorders ... the drug companies don't make enough money off of what they're being used for so they try&push them off as antipsychotics or antidepressants so that they can get more money. ugh they're all greedy idiots. but thankfully seroquel IS prescribed for bipolar disorder, schizophrenia&anxiety so i'm good :] i used to be on this one medicine like 5 years ago called nurontin&apparently it's not even for bipolar disorder. thank gosh i don't take that anymore because that's just ridiculous!

i really apologize for this but it's going to be awhile for my next set. i'm still breaking out like crazy&i'm also having my lovely monthly visitor atm so yeah i'm going to have to wait a few weeks so that i can let my face clear up. don't want to be all ugly looking for my set of course! it's just really weird for me to break out like this because i NEVER break out. even when i was a teenager i never broke out. yeah i guess you could say i'm one of those lucky people who didn't have skin problems. still though i have a lot of freckles on my face&i hate them ugh. i wish i had perfect beautiful clear skin with no freckles like some people have. i feel like my freckles make me ugly. i even have one on my lip&one on my lower eyelid! i was like wth is this?!? how does a freckle get there?!? i guess the irish part in me shows up through my freckles because otherwise i don't even look irish at all ahahaa.

so i've been listening to thinking of you by katy perry on repeat a lot. i watched the music video a few days ago&it was so incredibly sad D:. i guess anything that has to deal with the military makes me cry because i don't want anything like that to happen to my husband. i love katy perry though. i know she has a lot of haters but i think she's incredibly talented&she's really beautiful to top it all off. i can't wait to see what her next cd is going to be like.