I hit the wrong button...I didn't want to post an entry damnit! Oh well, sorry buddies!
Ahh, the joys of smoking. Tapping that fresh pack against my hand. Ripping off the plastic, pulling out the foil. Lighting one up and letting the nicotine alter my brain chemistry, one neurotransmitter at a time.
What is it about the habit that allures me so?
I know it's not the danger factor. It could kill me, I'm aware, but so could driving, eating pesticides,...
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What is it about the habit that allures me so?
I know it's not the danger factor. It could kill me, I'm aware, but so could driving, eating pesticides,...
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There's this place I go, a little nook I call my own. Everything I need, everything I desire, is right there with me. When no one is around, the possibilities are endless. I could go anywhere in the world, but I confine myself time and time again. What is the origin of my dismay? What sent me here? The lineage I may never understand, the...
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finnegan:
No one is alone. Come on don't act like I'm the only one who hears the voices.
What the hell is up with the new pic? I look like I ate a big piece of crap, don't I? Oh well.....I've got a degree but can't figure out how to center a damn picture. I'll figure it out some day.
caffeinemonkey:
You look great!
finnegan:
I really like the soft light. In Star Trek you could always tell a chick was gonna get a piece of the Kirk when they had that soft light. But dont feel pressured. You dont have to sleep with Bill Shatner if you dont want to.
I very much enjoy getting weird video podcasts to my little Bean pod but you know what I really hate? The guy on the VHI Best Week Ever. The man has more gums than Meg Ryan and also, embarrassingly enough, reminds me of a guy I dated once. I dont know who to write to, however, and complain about the man showing too much gummy...
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caffeinemonkey:
I love the raw oysters as well with some horeradish... yummy!
The only thing I like at McDonalds are the EggMcMuffins. As far as hamburgers go there are so many better places. Not sure if you have the Carl's Jr. where you are but their WesternBacon Cheesber is really good. I think they put crack in the bbq sauce.
Hope your week is going well.
Take care!
The only thing I like at McDonalds are the EggMcMuffins. As far as hamburgers go there are so many better places. Not sure if you have the Carl's Jr. where you are but their WesternBacon Cheesber is really good. I think they put crack in the bbq sauce.
Hope your week is going well.
Take care!
OK, I need some tutoring.......
In 1986, I fell for one of the meanest guys in my freshman class. He was always tormenting me, teasing me, he even drug me to the bathroom and gave me swirlies at least 20 times in the 4 years I was in high school. We despised each other. Then, our senior year, we dated for two months...then we graduated....
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In 1986, I fell for one of the meanest guys in my freshman class. He was always tormenting me, teasing me, he even drug me to the bathroom and gave me swirlies at least 20 times in the 4 years I was in high school. We despised each other. Then, our senior year, we dated for two months...then we graduated....
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finnegan:
Thats incredible darlin. That would be the finest of things. He has show he has passion which is definitely one of the key ingredients. Im sorry about this but I have to tell you to be cautious. Something about what you said sets off alarm bells. I feel like an ass for saying this. But I care about you very much and I would feel much worse if I didnt say anything and you got hurt because of it. Just dont be in a hurry. If its right a little patience wont hurt anything. Give him time to prove himself. The right man will never be offended by the chance to prove himself. Take the time to take the full measure of the man. And when you are sure Im wrong you tell me and I will be the happiest of fellows.
3 months ago, I all but hit bottom. I was devastated in a way I never thought possible. Not by this particular person, anyway. It's funny how easily love can open our hearts, yet close our eyes at the same time. As always, I have no one to blame but myself. I ignored my red flags. I believed someone had changed, when in reality they...
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finnegan:
Those that survive know the reasons why.
I guess the simple version is I cherish your words. Sometimes it is easier to see a persons strength from the outside.
I guess the simple version is I cherish your words. Sometimes it is easier to see a persons strength from the outside.
belllla:
Thank you so much for your comment on my story. 
The beginning starts now, prepare yourself for nothingness and insignificance and we will blissfully walk the empty shores. The crayola tide washes in the fruitlesss wonder of the world's new found bounty though realize thats its nothing more than one persons imagination and the beginning to the end.
finnegan:
Ending is the price and reward of beginning. Ending is not tragedy it is completion; the last sentence in a poem, the final brushstroke on the canvas. Tragedy is no poems and no paintings.
Shall we turn away from the majestic autumn lest we witness the leaves fall to winters snowy shroud? Taste not the sweet lovers kiss else to bear loves vessel faded?
Shall we turn away from the majestic autumn lest we witness the leaves fall to winters snowy shroud? Taste not the sweet lovers kiss else to bear loves vessel faded?
Happy Friday Eve!
caffeinemonkey:
I can not wait for the weekend! Lot of work to do tomorrow. But I plan on having a beer or two or three tomorrow night and celibrate the coming of the weekend!
Take care.
Take care.
I never sleep. I love watching informercials for things I don't need, yet am always so inclined to buy. I'm addicted to captain crunch. I hate slow drivers. I love playing hide and go seek. I hate sundays. I love feeling in control. I feel safe when it rains. Nothing is ever good enough for me. I love playing in the rain. I'm manipulative. I'm...
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caffeinemonkey:
That is quite some insight into you 
If I have to sum it all up... YOU ROCK!!!
If I have to sum it all up... YOU ROCK!!!