I HATE THE BRAIN.
I was only moderately drunk last night, but between leaving the party and arriving at Denny's, the most evil part of my brain, the one which, in some situations, takes the body in a death grip and doesn't let reason fight with it, took over and I could hardly move.
The best way I can describe the feeling is like that instant before you blackout from some physical trauma, but held in suspension for 8 hours.
I apologize to those I was with, but I had no way of knowing this would happen. All I can assume is that it was the memory of last weekend switched on suddenly when my brain realized again that I'd been poisoning myself and thus ridiculously amplified the effects of what damage I had really done and threw me into Prepare to Die mode.
Finally at about 6am this morning I had regained control of my mind and could feel confident in sleeping and having my essential functions continue.
Woke up this morning with horrible chest pain that hasn't gone away.
I said it last week, but I'm pretty sure I mean it now- David is done with intoxication for a long time. Maybe for good.
I was only moderately drunk last night, but between leaving the party and arriving at Denny's, the most evil part of my brain, the one which, in some situations, takes the body in a death grip and doesn't let reason fight with it, took over and I could hardly move.
The best way I can describe the feeling is like that instant before you blackout from some physical trauma, but held in suspension for 8 hours.
I apologize to those I was with, but I had no way of knowing this would happen. All I can assume is that it was the memory of last weekend switched on suddenly when my brain realized again that I'd been poisoning myself and thus ridiculously amplified the effects of what damage I had really done and threw me into Prepare to Die mode.
Finally at about 6am this morning I had regained control of my mind and could feel confident in sleeping and having my essential functions continue.
Woke up this morning with horrible chest pain that hasn't gone away.
I said it last week, but I'm pretty sure I mean it now- David is done with intoxication for a long time. Maybe for good.
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trixel:
It's been awhile since I've been around those friends. We used to be naked a lot with no fuss. I miss that. And yes, I agree, honesty does follow. 
logoff:
panic attack?