misschris

so.
now i'm questioning a few things.
like my attention to experience and consequences when it comes to liking guys.

i think of myself as cautious when it comes to men.
hell, i'm like a midget in a minefield. low to the ground and watching my step.

but is that so wrong?
i've been hurt too many times, all in varying degrees of despicability, and i think it's more than prudent to be careful. also, i tend to do some of the hurting myself. i get attatched too quickly, i'm far too open, and i leave my heart out waiting on the chopping block.

but doest that make me fearful? paranoid?

i'm not so sure.

i think i'm being smart. keepin' shit in check. making sure i don't get in over my head.
even if it is just with my own emotions.