miss_magenta

i have always been a person that has been quite scared of change. i have become more accepting to it over the years, but i am more comfortable when things don't change. things are about to change in a very big way for me. i am nervous, of course. the greater part of me however is excited and very happy. i know i will probably be judged a lot by my actions as being implusive or maybe even irrational. i don't think this is the case at all. i have found a person whom i love and adore so much and all i want is to be with that person. now i am going to. don't get me wrong, i am not scared because i think it isn't going to work out. no no no. i love joe with all my heart and i pretty much know this is going to work perfectly. drastic change such as this is scary though. i am ready for it. i am so tired of my heart aching because i can't be with him. i am so sick of laying in bed talking to him on the phone right before i fall asleep instead of looking into his eyes and having his arms around me. i will have this soon, and it will be the greatest feeling and experience in the entire world. and this time, i won't have to say goodbye.


i'm not going to be around here much for a while. not that it really matters anyway. you should all know that i'm always sending hugs and good thoughts your way.